Soul's Journey (Part 1 of 3): Identity Crisis

Identity Crisis

Who am I?
Well that’s what I’m asking myself
Spent most of my life trying to find the wealth,
Wealth not of riches of this land,
But for a soul that lies deep within man,
Sitting in this pew, listening to this sermon,
Knowing I could not be deserving,
Of the gift that God gave to man,
So when I die, I could live again,
Like one who brings a knife to a fight,
While his opponent is packing,
As I quietly listen, I find myself lacking,
Hey! Don’t get me wrong, I consider myself good,
But good doesn't cut from what I’ve understood,
I’ve sat in this pew, many times before,
This time is different, it’s like I’ve open the door,
To something that I never knew existed,
And though I’ve heard it before it never looked so realistic,
Now I realize that I was playing a game,
Trying to finish one I could never win,
Realizing my mistakes, I have to choose what’s right,
Not knowing if tomorrow's light, Will ever see my sight,
Though Hell is the punishment, that’s not enough to change,
Many know their going, but they don’t seem to change,
For me knowing that I will never see His face,
The one who created me and showed Love and Grace,
So when I realized I would see my maker,
I asked for salvation, no longer being a faker
To Be Continue

Part 2: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/08/souls-journey-part-2-of-3-delete.html
Part 3: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/08/souls-journey-part-3-of-3-front-line.html

Only when you Call

Checking my wallet, before I pick up your call,
Because I know it’s all about you when you fall,
This relationship should be about more than two,
But you only call when you “need me” and “going through”,
I fix all your problems and situations,
When you’re good you leave me hanging in anticipation,
It’s been so long; I miss you, at times forgetting your face,
I always forgive you, giving God’s saving grace,
Comforting you through hurts and life’s relationships,
Lord over your children as you permit,
Each time you return it seems new to me,
Forgot what you did and casting faults into the sea
For your sins I paid the ransom,
All I ask is that when I call you'll answer,
That being said Grace has its limits,
Not knowing what it is, I suggest you not spend it,
In all things it’s fully sufficient,
So hope you listen to this message and the one who sent it,

Your Turn

I’m coming through from the Fortress of Solitude,
My mind glued on the only thing I know is true,
Forgetting about cares like they don’t matter,
Teach young and old by letting my voice shatter,
Everything that’s not like God,
Turning world’s evens now to odd,
Being peculiar from the rest is the game,
With the full knowledge that Jesus Christ reigns,
I know because His blood on me remains,
To be holy in a world of the inhuman,
Reframe from being tainted the goal for my spirit,
Speak life to those who need it,
And speak revelation to those who heed it,
To live without Him no one can be saved,
Still bound to sin always a slave,
A love of Sprite, flesh thirst always obeyed,
A life in the wrong your curse will reside,
Because of sin the penalty complies,
That’s why I represent the King,
The one true God Lord over every being,
The one who causes dead men to be redeemed,
To live in freedom no longer to sin,
Always gentlemen it’s always your choice
So if you accept Him now, for you the Angel’s rejoice,

Rebound

Reveal, reveal what’s deep inside,
What was locked now beckons to rise,
My eyes are brown, but what I tell is no lie
These are struggles to make sense of my heart’s cries,
To assure emotions aren’t what carries when I hear,
The melodies created within me when you’re near,
Examining inclinations of what is truth,
As not to be confused with love created from youth,
Is this Wishful Thinking, looking for The Rarest?
Yearning to be love, I Love, while Loving You I careth,
Aspirations that you’ll be the only soul I call Boo,
My eyes focus on the road, no rear mirror peeking,
My ears deaf, at endeavors to get my attention,
My mind plays dumb when recognize are their intentions,
For you I take time to make sure this isn’t a rebound,
Caring so much no t to disrupt the harmony we’ve found,
Is what I’m feeling meant for you?
Or is this my attempt to make one turn to two?
These are answers I seek before this poem is through,
Recalling the original plan was to live in Solitude,
Completing the work that was left unfinished,
Redeeming time before all is diminished,
Loving friends, family and God would be all I need,
Not realizing laid plans need more to succeed,
Attempting to conceal my heart from failure,
And the responsibilities for my needs alone,
Oh now I understand where I went wrong,
Because skies are never more clearer and blue
Than the moment I finally met you,

I Love

I Love
Like a monsoon rain on desert plains
Where my pleasure seeks to find your name,
Like the Sun that melts ice away,
Turns to rivers flowing for brighter days,
Like skies of vibrant colors stimulating your vision,
Knowing where we go from here is your decision,
I Love like the end of romantic movies, from the beginning
Making your past the prequel,
While you, God and I make the sequel,
I Love like one who says forever and really means it,
A man that’s truer, you’ve never seen it,
Like birds in trees,
Singing of our story while brushing leaves,
And oceans that cover the earth without end
Conceal our story in the depths within,
I Love like the roads of life through twist and turns,
Like you’re my only limit,
And forever with you is how I care to spend it,
Love like we’re running out of time,
Then love to the point we stop time,
I Love like you’re the only woman in the world
Loving you more than a boy should love a girl
Love like it’s going out of style.
I Love until you wonder how,
Love like it’s the end of the world,
I Love like it’s my last breath,
I Love like I have nothing left,
I Love like it’s my heart that you stole
And you’re taking it to places where we’re never apart.
I Love