If Love Could Listen

There’s no doubt you’re my kryptonite,
And if we connected, a sea of emotions I’ll have to fight,
Intoxicating is your fragrance when the aroma is in the air,
My focus turns to you and now other things I no longer care,
Your face laced with a smile, begins to crumble this man,
I’ll empty my pockets to fulfill your every demand,
To hold or touch, love or feel,
My soul is now alarmed, and needs to chill,
Somehow, you obtain all my codes,
The ones to places, no one’s supposed to know,
Reserved for God, for His own time,
Prepared for Me, but given in time,
Left in wrong hands, my soul self destruct,
Needing repentance in order to reconstruct,
Amazing the damage, an attraction can cause,
Being with you, would surely be my fall,
I keep my distance and mine my own business,
But you seem to know, all the places I visit,
The residue of our past, is left in my system,
A process of removal, filled with attempts and tries,
The more I pull away, the more I feel I’ve died,
Sometimes I want you, and other times I miss you,
But my focus is on God, so there’s no time to please you,
I’ll never abandon you, for you’re always there,
And when I’m ready, I’ll be able to share,
When the times right, you’ll have my attention,
So listen to His desires, if you want me to listen.

Things Gone Awry

In “Jump Start”, it was never intended
In “After Image”, not seen and yet felt,
The conscious mind has its own aspirations
Attempting to put into words, a heart’s sensation,
Seemly not enough, my subconscious now comes to reveal,
Expressing its desires and things that were sealed,
Because lately, I find I dream of you,
Maybe just one…well if I’m honest… maybe two,
Dreams not causing one to sin,
But of those where time passes and where you’re my closest friend,
The first time; I called it a subconscious gone awry,
Not inhibited by my efforts or attempts to guide,
The second time; I realize it wanted a voice,
And though I suppressed it in my heart, it still made its choice,
So with its two cents and my emotions now amplified,
The cries of my soul, I can no longer hide,
My conscious controls these thoughts when I’m awake,
But In my dreams, the subconscious, lately I can’t shake,
The battle within,
I find it hard to defend,
So I make no plans or thoughts of what to do,
Knowing secretly, I want to be with you,
Knowing openly, I hold off feelings that fall for you,
And though I still try to fool myself,
The feelings for you are all I have left,

Jump Start

Excuse me but this was never intended,
Wasn't looking for love at this time,
For fear of reversing a heart, that's been mended,
Maybe a simple acquaintance
Or a social connection,
Looking into your eyes I've learn my first lesson,
Though the windows of your soul solidified an attraction,
The purity of soul over dazzling beauty, always warrant my reaction,
Even so, lovely was my vision settling upon your gaze,
But for my spirit, it was the one truly amazed,
Genuine love for the King, is such a beautiful sight,
No worries of a woman attempting to make me hers for the night,
Renewing my hopes for a future love unseen,
Recognizing reality, where it once was a dream,
Memorized, But attempting not to overdo it,
Retreating, Before my heart notice and I blew it,
Cold was its home, as it was placed to the side,
Unfortunate was its situation, and the places it reside,
Your smile caused the jolt, which started it all,
Sounds of crystallized ice, pour like waterfalls,
From my calculations this was ahead of schedule,
But the process has already begun,
Can’t stop the feelings,
until their course is run
I’ve often told myself, there's no time for such things,
Your existence causes me to ponder...possibilities,
Possibilities of a friendship filled with laughs & joy
And stories with happily ever afters, but never an ending.
This is just what I see as the beginning.

Not Advertising, I’m Just Saying

I would say I’m a lover, more so a fighter,
A fighter for love, maybe a good writer,
Funniest man, that you’ll ever know,
Whose able to see your heart and give it words to grow,
More than an acquaintance I’m always a friend,
Confidant and Counselor, always a gentleman,
Giving of words, for the hope that lies within,
Your motivator for right, refuter of sin,
The shiner of light into dark places,
Not a panderer for any attention,
My ears are yours, I'm here to listen,
Smarter than average, my wisdom’s from God,
A word of knowledge to reveal your fog,
Never a liar, always the truth being told,
Lover of my family, boundaries never unfold,
Leader, designer and creator, it’s a God thing,
Life's unpaid actor, who knows how to sing,
Tons of joy I give, I'll love to share with you,
If you’re hurting, I'll be the tissue,
Talents on loan, to give God His glory,
What you see here is a glimpse of my story
I’m not advertising, or boasting in anyway,
I’m just thanking God and took the time to say,