Try Again

If at first you don’t succeed?
What about the 9th or 10th?
Can I stop then?
Is love something that you win?
When do I retire my dream?
Is what I see in others as true as it seem?
If it’s a mirage, they play it well,
I know I'll forget what happen and jump in,
Maybe not now, but soon with hope,
That this time will be right, and I don’t look like a dope,
When looking for love they often seem right,
But wait til midnight,
Things turn back into pumpkins, others back into mice,
What happen to it all?
Why do feelings come and go?
Attempted to trace their tracks, but the trail goes cold,
Is fantasy reality?
Or reality fantasy?
Can I think of Love without the past & its failures?
To find one peaceful night, please clear the weather,
For I can no longer gamble my heart,
Hmmm maybe should have said it a while ago,
But somewhere you have to start,
And like Charlie Brown with dreams of kicking the ball,
As soon as I say I’m done, I allow myself to fall,
In love, Deep in Love,
With prayers it’s the right time, the last time,
To share the sunrise with her by my side,
If at first I don’t succeed?
Yes...I'll Try Again

Loved in Advance: I Want To

I want to wake up in the morning as I see your face,
Thank God for the opportunity for your presence I grace,
Snuggle real close on the coldest of nights,
Whisper sweet things throughout the day,
Remember the journey and how it led me to you,
The love shown in return always fresh and new,
Take long walks on a sunny day,
Just to hear your voice and what you have to say,
Grow old together but yet feel so young
Leave love notes behind, for when I’m gone,
Greet you with a kiss when I return,
Discuss our past and future and the things we've learn,
Cheer for you in all your endeavors,
The one you lean on through life’s whatevers,
Talk to God together who makes us complete,
Talk about God, His word we preach,
Worship the Lord in the unity of the Spirit,
Be holy examples to point them to Him,
Fulfill our destiny carved with His hands,
Have no lack for what your heart demands,
I guess what I’m really trying to express to you,
I just want to Love You.

And Now

And Now....here we go again,
Just me and you,
Some minutes have passed, more than just a few,
We’ve gone through a lot,
Passed and failed some tests,
Attempting to understand this life and it's quest,
If I haven't said it, I say you're pretty special,
Who would try to deny?
Giving the best in all you do, like giving love a try,
Not looking as if things will ever come through,
You continue to Love regardless with a heart so true,
I know you worry about what happened,
But just let it be,
Keep moving ahead is what you teach,
Time to live what you preached,
So much left to see, even more yet to do,
To the hills direct your head,
Remember God's there for you,
Assure His spirit is always followed,
Assure your spirit always led,
Best answers come from questions form on their knees,
And now is the time to be strong,
To unleash greatness dormant within,
Hold fast to eternal life,
In a world so dark, you be that light,
I'm encouraging you to stand, encourage you to live,
You've only seen the tip of the iceberg,
Through faith release the seal,
You are Loved, you are one of a kind,
Your pain? Yeah...leave that behind,
You’ve been through worst, and this is much less,
Greatest of God is produced, when you’re at your best,
Focus on that mirror and see what God so love,
Ok... enough reflection there's more work to be done.

Wondering

Thought of you tonight…
I’m sorry it wasn't intentional,
Only went outside, And saw stars twinkle,

Gazed above and wished the view could be shared,
Because I’ve lost the one I love, which can’t be compared,
Wondered if you were seeing the same sight,
Wondering if my name crossed your lips tonight,

Wondered if hope for us could shine again,
If time would help, I’ll gladly bend,
Scrolled through messages and see your face,
Say a quick prayer and hope it’s not too late,

If it is I’m not sure I want to know,
Die or Live? only time will show,
Second chance hope for, to give this love a try,
Move forward then come back to you, I think I know why,

Shared my soul, deeply connected,
Abruptly ended, deeply affected,
No lessons on how to “fall in Love”, that's all too easy,
Gravity takes hold and don't fall too quickly,

But for all my life there’s one thing I've failed to learn to do,
Just how do I "fall out of love" with you?

Picking up Pieces

Shattered were my hopes and dreams,
Shattered more, was my heart at its seems,
Seeing the pieces lay there on the ground,
Not knowing how it burst, not hearing the sound,
Each day is a step in the right direction,
Force to heed a heart that beckons.
To walk across sands seeking new horizons,
In search of truths, and how to find them,
If love were game I’d believed I’ve lost this round,
Listening for a beat from my heart, it can’t be found,
Not giving up on hope that Love again can be born a new,
Just giving up on that fact that it’s no longer with you,
Could play the role, and begin to pretend,
Like I never met you, so there was no end,
But in that lie, I’ll forget what I’ve learned,
Doom to repeat the mistakes and not discern,
Those who enter and access my heart,
Then dismantle within and tore apart,
Not intentionally but the results speak for its self,
Which felt right, hastily turned left,
Gathered myself because the journey hasn’t ended,
Love of God comforts, starts the process of mending,
Knowing the old will turn to new,
As I encourage myself and move on through,
To the future knowing that love is not lost
One day try again,
Believing it will be found again,
Within the realms of God, without guilt or sin,
Shattered were my hopes and dreams,
Shattered more was my heart at its seems,
Not seeing the pieces there on the ground,
But found complete in God's hands, safe and sound,

Still in Love

Why can’t I be just like any man,
Once love is lost, quickly move on again,
And though I’m better, and things start to become new,
I still find myself thinking of you,
Attempting to live my life just the same,
Just seems wrong, and I think you're to blame,
Allowing one to touch their soul, can’t be easily replaced,
So I guess that’s why I find it hard, for these memories to erase,
I know it will be better, and it already has,
I take two steps forward and remember our past,
Maybe I should be stronger and maybe I shouldn’t care,
But it’s hard to do, when our lives we planned to share,
I know it’s not your issue, and it’s not your problem
Just had to write my thoughts, in hopes I could solve them,
Wishing it could be different, doesn’t make it change,
Wishing we still talked, and getting to know you again,
I can respect your wishes, I’ll just leave this with you,
Honestly...I’m still in love with you.

Guilty (Ex 20:3)

I stand here accused and don’t need a trial,
Looking at the evidence they’ve recently compiled,
I’d like to explain my innocence,
But right now it wouldn’t make any sense,
Because it would seem as though I had no clue,
Of what the word truly meant, when thinking You,
If I said I didn’t do it, that would be a lie,
Right now I might do it again, if able to try,
I know it’s sad, but I’m confessing to You,
Just saying somethings you already knew,
I’m Guilty!
There I said it!
It doesn’t matter anymore,
I can’t regret it,
Just give me the punishment, you have in store,
For I’m guilty of this and so much more,
Guilty of loving, without cause or a license,
Loving without reason, across all devices,
Guilty of loving without really knowing if it was even deserved,
Guilty of given my heart & soul and not being able to serve,
Guilty of loving ahead of its time,
Guilty of loving before she was even mine,
Guilty of giving the deepest parts of me,
Where others seek to know and some want to be,
Guilty of loving her, for better or for worst,
Guilty of loving so much it hurts,
So when I became guilty of pleasing her over You,
Here comes my arrest, all over, all through.

More than Love...Believe

I couldn't ask of a better woman for my Love's affection,
I’m honored that you’ve also made me your selection,
I feel for you what I haven’t another,
Like when souls opened up and won't be uncovered,
Joined voices as we prayed and studied God’s word,
The laughter from the jokes we shared,
Family talks and love ones to compare,
Our inner secrets, we only exchange,
Heartfelt connection will always remain,
Talking with our children as if they were our own,
With future talks of sharing a home,
Sitting going through pictures we've sent,
Thanking God for the time we shared and He allowed to be spent,
Taking time to tell one another what we really mean,
Prayers at night, for everyone we connect,
Praising God first that it's each other we've met,
Our Love is True, don’t ever be deceived,
But if Love’s not enough, what more do we need…Believe.

Happily Ever After?

She said too much, too fast,
Even I had to wonder how long this pace could last,
And with all that said, I would gladly slow it down for you,
As long as forever ends up with just us two,
So we take it easy, I give her space,
Until then reminisce of our times and place,
Holding hands, an embrace, or a kiss,
Those are a few of the things I miss,
Like, the sound of her voice,
How when I hear it, my heart perks and rejoice,
And even now as I think on who she is to me,
I wonder... how she’s doing? Does she even miss me?,
Do I cross her mind?...anytime?
Or was it fleeting as time passes by,
Though far away, she's never felt more distance,
Am I that forgettable? What was I missing?
Was it all infatuation? Was our love an act?
I believe it to be real, but somehow disconnect,
Could this be the end? Are we still connected?
I've waited for all my life, now things feel so uncertain,
My love for her so strong, don’t draw the curtain,
Should have pressed the breaks, before Love’s rush ended,
Could have adjusted, could have amended,
I still believe in love, and believe in hope,
I still believe in a second chance,
And believe we’ll find our romance.