Not so Odd

Not often do I write on the subject, though I love it dearly,
Everyone has their opinion, so I won't be mad if you don’t hear me,
To be a Father is an honor, and not to be taken likely,
Men, I'll tell you the truth, and I don’t care if you like me,
I’ll never look for pats on the back for this position given,
Blessing if understood, for this world that we live in,
Yet men and women congratulate me, on the things I’m doing,
I not sure why, because isn't this what I’m supposed to be doing?
It seems the reason is, Men have fallen off the map,
They know how to have sex, but not behave after the act,
And Ladies I can’t even be mad at you, well I take that back,
You knew what you were getting, before you jumped into the sack,
But never the less after the deed is done,
You’re usually the first to mature, after producing a daughter or son,
While men hideaway, waiting for someone to make them do right,
You lay with her, now it’s your responsibility to take care of that life,
And shame on you if you’re not taking care of your seed,
Leaving your child lacking for the things that they need,
Just because you pay child support doesn’t mean that’s child support,
To build relationship, show love in life, is your job and that’s no joke,
Women say you’re not needed and your presence has no worth,
Well if that were the case, Why God put you here first,
Your absence is notice by those who can truly see,
Women can do a lot, but they can’t be all they need,
And thank you to women who don’t give good men issues,
Just because we couldn’t love you, doesn't mean we can’t love your tissue.
So for now I’ll take the accolades, just for doing my job,
But I pray in the future, it seems a little less odd.

When Forever Ends

Don’t make me wait Forever,
I’ll believe you if you say it’s worth it,
I won’t rely off what I see,
But can’t remove the need I perceive,
Loving someone just feels right,
Reframing from thinking on it, just for tonight,
Days like this, I find myself dreaming,
Comforting touches just by holding hands,
Love blackmails, for my heart it demands,
Concealing my emotions, of that I’m aware,
While searching for opportunity, where Love’s shared,
My heart fills up quickly, it can’t be contained,
Creating petitions, no one's ever alone again,
Forfeiting risk of failure and broken hearts,
Right now seems the perfect time to start,
Recovered, but scared memories still remain,
Treasure chest buried deep, assuring I’ll never be the same,
Fear to blame, if I never reach my goal,
And Love unlimited, to see life's joy unfold.
But I can’t remove the need, I feel I perceive,
And won’t rely off the things, I wish and hope to see,
I believed when you said what Love was truly worth,
So please don’t make me wait...Forever.

Undisputed

If I were asked, I’ll say LOVE's the heaviest of emotions,
How despite what’s done or said, it still garners our devotion,
And once it’s locked, it’s hard to break without a key,
Which is never made, because we never see the need,
To be in LOVE, we feel pain and it doesn't seem to matter,
That may explain when it’s gone, we run and seek after,
And those who say they really could careless,
Usually change their story, after finding one over the rest,
I’ll never say it’s just an emotion or I don’t want to deal,
Let’s just say at this time, I’m not ready to feel,
For I know what LOVE, is truly able to do,
When you’re not prepare, it’ll wash over you,
Drowning best of swimmers, no longer found,
Washed up on Life’s shore, no one’s around,
Not feeling LOVE, might be the greatest felony ever,
Except for letting it go, like when wind meets a feather,
Not knowing LOVE, couldn't be the greatest crime,
Only one supersedes it....
Knowing when it’s lost, you’re no longer mine,

A Christmas Prayer

Father please look upon us on this very day,
And be pleased with the things we do and say,
Since your name is Majestic we remember you first,
And give You thanks for sending Your son and His birth,
A world lost in darkness, You sent us the light,
That our sins could be forgiven and we see your sight,
We thank You Father, for those who can receive,
And pray through our actions it’s You they believe,
For born in a manger, you sent the ruler of the world,
To save every man, woman, boy and girl,
Forgive us Lord, if we should ever lose track,
Of the gift You gave, to bring mankind back,
We value each moment and hour we live in,
Since nothing is promised, gifted is the time we’re given,
We Bless you Father, for gift’s price you’ve paid,
And say Merry Christmas all, to remember this day,

I Hate When I Miss You

I see no tears, so why am I internally throbbing,
I hold my chest but can't keep my heart from sobbing,
Calculating possibilities of time travel existing,
Because in this minute, you’re the one I’m missing,
I see your picture before me on social networks,
Initiating reminiscing on how kissing your neck works,
Hearing your voice on the phone under a self imposed friendship,
Second guessing never pursuing the depths of this relationship,
Many memories flood hastily through my mind,
Categorizing accordingly, to see if a solution I find,
Searching for life which includes you and me,
While living in moments where we’re still we,
Friends telling me I should let it go,
Their words enter my mind, but my heart they never show,
Moving on, not my desire option,
Not seeing the happily, that’s in the after,
Thinking of you, right now doesn't seem to matter,
Living with the choices I've made,
Emotions cry out for love to be obeyed,
They say time heals all wounds,
It’s been a while, so hope recovery comes soon,
I realize my dilemma should never be your issue,
So I write to release, when I hate that I miss you.

Between the Words

Thought my heart had finish writing to you,
But who am I to say when it’s over and threw,
No longer penned for romances,
Instead writing for second chances,
Now realized is weight carried in my sigh,
Wondering if it would’ve been better if I’d lied,
Currently feeling I should bury my head,
Constantly recalling the things I said,
Maybe it stems from thoughts of what could’ve been,
Back when it was your heart I was trying to win,
Leaked were the emotions from my heart,
Knowing it couldn’t be me,
Always wanting the best for you from the start,
Frustrating over what I see,
Their failure to meet your commitment to love,
Me watching, wishing to see you love,
Not love only, but receive in return,
Could I be wrong for these feelings I yearn?
To cheer for you, though you may never know it,
Marvel at you, and may never show it,
I feel your pain and weep in silence,
I get upset, but keep from violence,
For a wonderful woman who’s worthy of the best,
Knowing when you find it, my heart too can find rest.

Loved in Advance: Always Remember

Captured in these lines are the purest emotions I’ve wrote,
God forbid the “Future Me” ever thinks it’s a joke,
But if he did, and you love me, please take this key,
A letter to Him, so he can always find me,
A letter to you, because you are my Gem,
Knowing love can easily be lost, not found on a whim,
I am the one that will never forget,
Waiting on love, until told to cast my net,
I appreciate what was, had, and now is lost,
And recall of how much of my soul it cost,
I remember changing, to be a better man,
Built in His image, design for His plan,
Desires for companionship, revived once again,
Hoping, praying, I’ll get the chance to love again,
I remember the failures and guilt of my past,
Thinking that relationships could never truly last,
Saying if opportunity ever called,
I would cherish her forever, winter, summer, spring and fall,
I would remember, winter nights; no heater could replace her warmth,
And summer days wishing she’ll comfort my heart,
I remember thinking, as quickly as these words rushed from this pen,
Oh how I wish the distance between us would end,
If you’re still reading this, just know you’ll always have my heart,
Love’s actions louder than my words, so you’ll feel that part,
I remember truly honored, to have you in my life,
Even more so to know you’ll be my wife,
I remember people count time by the moments that were spent,
But can lose track of Love, where it came or went,
So I’ll pray, I’ll never lose this gift placed in my life
And In advance I’ll write this, to assure you I’ll always stay right.

Loved in Advance: Wait for Me

I’m not one to write to you,
But if I were, I’ll have a word or two
Like…
Wait for me, hold on to the Faith,
Never give up, always keep the pace,
Follow His leading; He’ll never lead you astray,
Always a word, to point you in the way,
When days seem their darkness, don’t have fear,
Because your redeemer, surly draws near,
He knows your burdens, and what you need most,
So He sent the comforter, called the Holy Ghost,
You prayed for me, and ask me to come,
I can’t right now, before His work in me is done,
I'll say your prayers are being answered, as He forms me in His likeness,
Designed for you, made also in His likeness,
I encourage you to hold on, hold fast to the truth,
The words spoken over your life, when you were a youth,
You do not know me, nor do I know you,
But one day when He permits, I’ll surely find you,
Inside of me there’s a longing that He has filled,
He’ll continue to do the job, until you’re revealed,
So until that time, I implore you to wait,
Not on a date, but on me your mate,
Wait for the moments, which should be shared with two,
The moments where Love at its best can cover you,
Moments when Love is felt, shown and not just spoken,
Wait for the moments, where you have my all, and not a token,
Wait for the moments, that time can’t erase,
Moments, that lifts you high, when you were abase,
Wait for moments, where all feels complete,
For this is what’s in store, for the moment we meet,
Wait for me, Please wait for me,

Vol V: Deeper III

Deeper III: When I'm Done Crying

So while pondering on my next move,
I hear a voice that says wake up you fool,
Thinking, in life sometimes you’ll have to go through pains,
I’m happy now, but it wasn’t always the same,
Trying to breathe, but no breathe would come,
Heartbroken to pieces, difficult to make it one,
Tears internally…sometimes externally race swiftly down,
To the depths of my soul, the lost and found,
Pains so bad it hurts to mention,
It’s been sometime and my heart still has tension,
From Love wasted and cast to the floor,
Trying to figure out, how it loved any more,
Dreaded gasps for hope lingered in the air,
In the thoughts will they change, will they care?
I’ve heard no expectations, no disappointments,
But though I’ve tried to follow, my heart always made appointments,
For the things it wished could have been,
To live a life with love, mutual & no end,
But like a disease, it slowly ate away,
Prayers for clear light to break through on a cloudy day,
Things going around in circles with clearly no end,
Worried about the creature, more than the creator,
Realizing I’ve neglected my King and maker,
Asking forgiveness for thoughts that led to sin,
In order to turn a lost, into a win,
Through it all I’ve found so much peace,
By taking the time to love God and me
No longer Jonah, my destiny now pursuing,
No longer worried, about things that were ruin.
To be continued…

Deeper I:
Deeper II:

The Single Things We Do (Part I): Feelings Unchecked

Personally I confess, I consider my feelings distracting,
So I’ll acknowledge them on paper to keep from reacting,
What you’re about see is an example of what I call Heart Leakage,
When my soul begins to say the things, I rather not be speaking,
So here is, or could it be,
That I already know whose right for me,
And though my heart longs to investigate,
My Spirit steps in and says “Booooy you better wait!”
He says, I have things in store for your life,
And dude right now, this isn’t the time pondering a wife,
“Get to know me” is the Phase you’re in,
Now that your soul has been completely purged from sin,
This requires immersion through love and devotion,
Because thinking of her, is like drinking an unhealthy potion,
Focus is lost, and Dull goes the hearing,
Missions not complete, you'll miss His appearing,
Sure it’s not good for man to be alone,
But when you’re alone, you can sing that song,
If you lose your focus, I can't help you,
When I’m not wanted, can't fight you,
For I’m here to guide you, in the ways of all truth,
So listen to me now, “Don’t rely on you!”
Earthy desires unchecked, can cause you to stray,
If they go against what God, already has to say,
So control what you have, acknowledge those feelings,
Offer them to God; He has a plan for what you're dealing,
He knows your situations, and understands them clearly,
So depend on Him, for He loves you dearly
To be Continue,

Just one Look

I confess, my heart calls for you,
Love and comfort is what you do,
I’ve waited so long, to find this feeling,
I pinch myself, to assure I’m still breathing,
Thoughts of how I’ve ever lived without you,
Forgive me for the times, I ever doubted you,
I can say I’ve found you, but truth is you were always there,
Waiting for me to turn around, so my burdens you could bare,
Words can’t explain, how I feel towards you,
My heart now open wide, is a banquet set for two,
Though never witnessed, I know I’ve seen your face,
Through your Love so pure, with forgiveness alls erased,
My mind tries conceptualize, your infinite majesty,
Closer drawn to you, is the destination I see for me,
My God! I love you, like I never loved another,
Because I love you, I can now love another,
You have my devotion, I’m at your beckon call,
Your wisdom worked it out in advance, to catch me before I fall,
Who thinks of these things? Who can elucidate their meaning?
The more I walk with you, the more the world I’m weaning,
Wrapped up in your arms, that’s where I want to be,
Love without you is an imitation; these words in stilled in me,
Embrace me forever, beyond space and time,
Never let me go, until your breath becomes mine,
To fathom your greatness, all are failed tries,
This is what happens when I look into your eyes,

You Are Loved

These words I pour out from a garden tub called hope:

Words sought to console lost but not found,
These words do I pour that hope may abound.

Your life is a journey that only you can bare,
No understanding of why or if anyone still cares,
While you've been through a very great deal, it seems few can relate,
As Change failed to come on Her appointment's date,

With your pride set aside, cries can be heard so very crystal clear,
Spoken in a unknown language that only your God can hear,
Talked about quite often, due to previous mistakes,
Beginning to wonder if an expected end for you awaits.

"You are Loved", often said, not to be taken lightly,
"You are Loved", softly whispered, in your right ear nightly,
Despite all you’ve lived, Hope's always been there,
"Only Believe", God’s words to you I share,

He has not forgotten, this I know to be true,
He is always there, assigned to comfort you,
When you’re caught hurting and feeling all alone,
Consider your Heavenly Father, who gladly gave His own,

Though He knew no wrong, His Love for you still covers,
What kind of Love is this?
One that DIES and yet RECOVERS!!!

Soul's Journey (Part 3 of 3): Front Line (WAR)

The Trumpet sounds, calling me to the Front Line,
Hearting beating so fast, I feel I’ll flat line,
No longer concerned, about what I used to do,
Now helping others, is what I’m called to do,
The Father cleanse me, for such a time as this,
Forever Thankful, assuring I’ll never forget,
Seeing everything He’s done, makes me seek Him more,
All hands on stations, Now It’s Time for War,
Most are on the Defensive, when it’s time to attack,
People so afraid of being offensive, they forgot how to act,
Most people remember Jesus, for His Love and Kindness shown,
But the establishment remembered Him, as the Rebel without a Home,
His job always to fulfill, the works of His father,
Didn’t worry about ruffling feathers, or being a bother,
People say “Don’t Judge Me” referring to Mathew Chapter 7 & verse 1
Not realizing that without verse 2, it isn’t close to being done,
So when we go to War, to destroy the gods of this land,
We must first be partakers, if in the end we want to win,
So as the trumpets blur, and my spirit is now raise,
I’m taking ground for the Kingdom of God, for the rest of my days,
We’re Going to War.
Part 1: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/06/souls-journey-part-1-of-3-identity.html
Part 2: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/08/souls-journey-part-2-of-3-delete.html

Soul's Journey (Part 2 of 3): (DELETE)

As I now look back, I should kept walking,
But somehow you and I… well we starting talking,
Things never felt right, but you look so fine,
So I figured I’ll give you, a little of my time,
Exchanging numbers, led to conversations,
Seeing where your soul was, regarding salvation,
You said it was kindred and but sent me a picture,
One which cause my flesh to get a rise & hinder,
A surprise not suited for spiritual eyes,
Filled with buttocks, hips & thighs,
So knowing that it would be hard for me to compete,
I went to my phone, push button, (DELETE),
I realized I would have a time on my hands,
By trying to preach God & fight off your demands,
For your advances put dints in my armor,
Words I scattered, show no growth for this farmer,
The more I attempted to pour into your life,
The more you attempted to make yourself my wife,
I wonder if you’ve never seen someone like me before,
Salvation being real and Married to the Lord,
Casting pearls before swine, yeah that was my mistake,
How to let you down easy, was my current debate,
For my righteousness is not for sale,
With Fear of the Lord, In His presence I’ll dwell,
As I draw myself closer to hear what He’ll have me do,
More and More I saw myself leaving you,
So knowing that it’s His purity and Holiness I seek,
I went to my facebook, click button, (DELETE),

Part 1: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/06/souls-journey-part-1-of-3-identity.html
Part 3: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/08/souls-journey-part-3-of-3-front-line.html

If God Gave Me You

Sun fades away and fails to shine its light,
The second my eyes catch your sight,
Majestic and beauty have now lost their meaning,
As feelings release and swarm within me,
DNA results say Love makes this man,
Built for one God has planned,
Love so deep it rivals oceans,
Lack? It knows no notion,
It overflows and none can contain it,
Where it hails none can explain it,
Designed from God’s perfected template,
The one intended when one finds a perfect mate,
No longer caught up with thoughts of pursuing,
With a heavy heart that’s continually brewing,
For the best God has offered you,
Thoughts of what would happen if God gave me you,
Reservations for one, it now calls for two,
For giving my overflow is what I vow to do,
Making sure I stand and never fall,
For the one I love I’ll give my all,
With His fingers He designed you so fine,
To saturate my aura and evaporate my mind
No moment squandered you flow with style and grace,
But without you by my side I see it as a waste,
The clearest reflections produce thoughts so true,
For these are my thoughts, if God gave me you.

If Love Could Listen

There’s no doubt you’re my kryptonite,
And if we connected, a sea of emotions I’ll have to fight,
Intoxicating is your fragrance when the aroma is in the air,
My focus turns to you and now other things I no longer care,
Your face laced with a smile, begins to crumble this man,
I’ll empty my pockets to fulfill your every demand,
To hold or touch, love or feel,
My soul is now alarmed, and needs to chill,
Somehow, you obtain all my codes,
The ones to places, no one’s supposed to know,
Reserved for God, for His own time,
Prepared for Me, but given in time,
Left in wrong hands, my soul self destruct,
Needing repentance in order to reconstruct,
Amazing the damage, an attraction can cause,
Being with you, would surely be my fall,
I keep my distance and mine my own business,
But you seem to know, all the places I visit,
The residue of our past, is left in my system,
A process of removal, filled with attempts and tries,
The more I pull away, the more I feel I’ve died,
Sometimes I want you, and other times I miss you,
But my focus is on God, so there’s no time to please you,
I’ll never abandon you, for you’re always there,
And when I’m ready, I’ll be able to share,
When the times right, you’ll have my attention,
So listen to His desires, if you want me to listen.

Things Gone Awry

In “Jump Start”, it was never intended
In “After Image”, not seen and yet felt,
The conscious mind has its own aspirations
Attempting to put into words, a heart’s sensation,
Seemly not enough, my subconscious now comes to reveal,
Expressing its desires and things that were sealed,
Because lately, I find I dream of you,
Maybe just one…well if I’m honest… maybe two,
Dreams not causing one to sin,
But of those where time passes and where you’re my closest friend,
The first time; I called it a subconscious gone awry,
Not inhibited by my efforts or attempts to guide,
The second time; I realize it wanted a voice,
And though I suppressed it in my heart, it still made its choice,
So with its two cents and my emotions now amplified,
The cries of my soul, I can no longer hide,
My conscious controls these thoughts when I’m awake,
But In my dreams, the subconscious, lately I can’t shake,
The battle within,
I find it hard to defend,
So I make no plans or thoughts of what to do,
Knowing secretly, I want to be with you,
Knowing openly, I hold off feelings that fall for you,
And though I still try to fool myself,
The feelings for you are all I have left,

Jump Start

Excuse me but this was never intended,
Wasn't looking for love at this time,
For fear of reversing a heart, that's been mended,
Maybe a simple acquaintance
Or a social connection,
Looking into your eyes I've learn my first lesson,
Though the windows of your soul solidified an attraction,
The purity of soul over dazzling beauty, always warrant my reaction,
Even so, lovely was my vision settling upon your gaze,
But for my spirit, it was the one truly amazed,
Genuine love for the King, is such a beautiful sight,
No worries of a woman attempting to make me hers for the night,
Renewing my hopes for a future love unseen,
Recognizing reality, where it once was a dream,
Memorized, But attempting not to overdo it,
Retreating, Before my heart notice and I blew it,
Cold was its home, as it was placed to the side,
Unfortunate was its situation, and the places it reside,
Your smile caused the jolt, which started it all,
Sounds of crystallized ice, pour like waterfalls,
From my calculations this was ahead of schedule,
But the process has already begun,
Can’t stop the feelings,
until their course is run
I’ve often told myself, there's no time for such things,
Your existence causes me to ponder...possibilities,
Possibilities of a friendship filled with laughs & joy
And stories with happily ever afters, but never an ending.
This is just what I see as the beginning.

Not Advertising, I’m Just Saying

I would say I’m a lover, more so a fighter,
A fighter for love, maybe a good writer,
Funniest man, that you’ll ever know,
Whose able to see your heart and give it words to grow,
More than an acquaintance I’m always a friend,
Confidant and Counselor, always a gentleman,
Giving of words, for the hope that lies within,
Your motivator for right, refuter of sin,
The shiner of light into dark places,
Not a panderer for any attention,
My ears are yours, I'm here to listen,
Smarter than average, my wisdom’s from God,
A word of knowledge to reveal your fog,
Never a liar, always the truth being told,
Lover of my family, boundaries never unfold,
Leader, designer and creator, it’s a God thing,
Life's unpaid actor, who knows how to sing,
Tons of joy I give, I'll love to share with you,
If you’re hurting, I'll be the tissue,
Talents on loan, to give God His glory,
What you see here is a glimpse of my story
I’m not advertising, or boasting in anyway,
I’m just thanking God and took the time to say,

Soul's Journey (Part 1 of 3): Identity Crisis

Identity Crisis

Who am I?
Well that’s what I’m asking myself
Spent most of my life trying to find the wealth,
Wealth not of riches of this land,
But for a soul that lies deep within man,
Sitting in this pew, listening to this sermon,
Knowing I could not be deserving,
Of the gift that God gave to man,
So when I die, I could live again,
Like one who brings a knife to a fight,
While his opponent is packing,
As I quietly listen, I find myself lacking,
Hey! Don’t get me wrong, I consider myself good,
But good doesn't cut from what I’ve understood,
I’ve sat in this pew, many times before,
This time is different, it’s like I’ve open the door,
To something that I never knew existed,
And though I’ve heard it before it never looked so realistic,
Now I realize that I was playing a game,
Trying to finish one I could never win,
Realizing my mistakes, I have to choose what’s right,
Not knowing if tomorrow's light, Will ever see my sight,
Though Hell is the punishment, that’s not enough to change,
Many know their going, but they don’t seem to change,
For me knowing that I will never see His face,
The one who created me and showed Love and Grace,
So when I realized I would see my maker,
I asked for salvation, no longer being a faker
To Be Continue

Part 2: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/08/souls-journey-part-2-of-3-delete.html
Part 3: http://heartspeak101.blogspot.com/2011/08/souls-journey-part-3-of-3-front-line.html

Only when you Call

Checking my wallet, before I pick up your call,
Because I know it’s all about you when you fall,
This relationship should be about more than two,
But you only call when you “need me” and “going through”,
I fix all your problems and situations,
When you’re good you leave me hanging in anticipation,
It’s been so long; I miss you, at times forgetting your face,
I always forgive you, giving God’s saving grace,
Comforting you through hurts and life’s relationships,
Lord over your children as you permit,
Each time you return it seems new to me,
Forgot what you did and casting faults into the sea
For your sins I paid the ransom,
All I ask is that when I call you'll answer,
That being said Grace has its limits,
Not knowing what it is, I suggest you not spend it,
In all things it’s fully sufficient,
So hope you listen to this message and the one who sent it,

Your Turn

I’m coming through from the Fortress of Solitude,
My mind glued on the only thing I know is true,
Forgetting about cares like they don’t matter,
Teach young and old by letting my voice shatter,
Everything that’s not like God,
Turning world’s evens now to odd,
Being peculiar from the rest is the game,
With the full knowledge that Jesus Christ reigns,
I know because His blood on me remains,
To be holy in a world of the inhuman,
Reframe from being tainted the goal for my spirit,
Speak life to those who need it,
And speak revelation to those who heed it,
To live without Him no one can be saved,
Still bound to sin always a slave,
A love of Sprite, flesh thirst always obeyed,
A life in the wrong your curse will reside,
Because of sin the penalty complies,
That’s why I represent the King,
The one true God Lord over every being,
The one who causes dead men to be redeemed,
To live in freedom no longer to sin,
Always gentlemen it’s always your choice
So if you accept Him now, for you the Angel’s rejoice,

Rebound

Reveal, reveal what’s deep inside,
What was locked now beckons to rise,
My eyes are brown, but what I tell is no lie
These are struggles to make sense of my heart’s cries,
To assure emotions aren’t what carries when I hear,
The melodies created within me when you’re near,
Examining inclinations of what is truth,
As not to be confused with love created from youth,
Is this Wishful Thinking, looking for The Rarest?
Yearning to be love, I Love, while Loving You I careth,
Aspirations that you’ll be the only soul I call Boo,
My eyes focus on the road, no rear mirror peeking,
My ears deaf, at endeavors to get my attention,
My mind plays dumb when recognize are their intentions,
For you I take time to make sure this isn’t a rebound,
Caring so much no t to disrupt the harmony we’ve found,
Is what I’m feeling meant for you?
Or is this my attempt to make one turn to two?
These are answers I seek before this poem is through,
Recalling the original plan was to live in Solitude,
Completing the work that was left unfinished,
Redeeming time before all is diminished,
Loving friends, family and God would be all I need,
Not realizing laid plans need more to succeed,
Attempting to conceal my heart from failure,
And the responsibilities for my needs alone,
Oh now I understand where I went wrong,
Because skies are never more clearer and blue
Than the moment I finally met you,

I Love

I Love
Like a monsoon rain on desert plains
Where my pleasure seeks to find your name,
Like the Sun that melts ice away,
Turns to rivers flowing for brighter days,
Like skies of vibrant colors stimulating your vision,
Knowing where we go from here is your decision,
I Love like the end of romantic movies, from the beginning
Making your past the prequel,
While you, God and I make the sequel,
I Love like one who says forever and really means it,
A man that’s truer, you’ve never seen it,
Like birds in trees,
Singing of our story while brushing leaves,
And oceans that cover the earth without end
Conceal our story in the depths within,
I Love like the roads of life through twist and turns,
Like you’re my only limit,
And forever with you is how I care to spend it,
Love like we’re running out of time,
Then love to the point we stop time,
I Love like you’re the only woman in the world
Loving you more than a boy should love a girl
Love like it’s going out of style.
I Love until you wonder how,
Love like it’s the end of the world,
I Love like it’s my last breath,
I Love like I have nothing left,
I Love like it’s my heart that you stole
And you’re taking it to places where we’re never apart.
I Love

Vol VI: This Muse: On Clouds of Air

II. On Clouds of Air

I don’t care how I got here
And I’m not scared,
Floating above the world,
On mere air,
Feeling love has got me hazy,
but I’m aware.
Happiness with you,
My only care,
Finding what’s true is worth its wait,
Is what I've learned,
Emotions adorned in loving you,
I’m glad to share,
My journey for completion,
Is almost near,
Passing broken roads and bridges,
Beyond repair,
The sounds of a heart’s reconstruction,
Is what you hear,
Scales falling off my eyes,
My life is clear,
The possibilities of what could be,
Too hard to compare,
High above the earth I see,
On Clouds of Air.

Inspired by Rebuild me (Remix) by J. Moss
Written: Sunday, May 15, 2011 at 7:35am

Loving You

Loving You

Loving you is no longer an option,
If I had others, I still wouldn’t stop it,
Everything dropping, you have my attention,
More than that, if you give minutes to listen,
Your affections for me have struck its tone,
Our hearts connected like a celluar phone,
Not even sure how we got this far
So deep in my heart, finding you the only one,
Never believed in luck, but if I did,
I’ll bet it all on this moment, and it’s time to live,
Relinquishing status of being single,
Two hearts now mingle,
While others broken, seeing it’s now official,
Saying they miss you, they now find tissues,
This is true and after all the drama,
Fresh air comes through and leaves us calmer,
Every heart’s door opens, you have the key,
Stay as long as you please, with you is where I want to be,
Constantly changing to give you my best,
No breaks, or stops, no need for rest,
Not one for broken promises, hopelessness and lost wishes,
Ever the achiever, your happiness my mission,
Men search the world looking for a wife,
I search the heart, for one to share a life,

Written: Wednesday, May 11, 2011 at 6:50pm

Vol V: Fluent

Fluent

Everyone wants to know what’s valued inside,
Contents revealed releases a heart’s prize,
Like a book that stands for all the world to see,
There is only one that can completely read,
Others make attempts but can’t understand,
Eventually give up because of time’s great demand,
Some notice it's familiar to others they’ve seen,
Translate few passages intrigued to gleam,
But later give up reaching for the door,
Unable able to fully grasp deeper levels in store,
For the one in whom it was intended,
Has gone through pain and knows how to mend it,
Brings clear skies to what’s seen rain,
And words of life when all have gone away,
Hands designed to comfort and strengthen when weak,
Acts of compassion that are thoughtful and sweet,
Give feelings of a world being beneath your feet,
Knowing how to receive as much as to give,
Realizing when it’s true and not on a whim,
One who’s found this book with no sort of ease,
But by using their heart, to only believe,
For others attempted but nearly cause ruin,
But you’ve found your counterpart, because you’re also fluent,
And when reading yours, the language is the same,
Because knowing in the heart is where true love came.

Written: Tuesday, May 3, 2011 at 8:58pm

Mother's Day Tribute Day

Mother's Day Tribute Day

Now it’s time to say how I feel
Open the fountains of my heart, let it reveal,
Talking about a woman who knew me before I knew right,
Talking about the woman who aided God in giving me life,
You call her many things, but I call her Mom,
First woman I ever loved and showed me the world,
Carried me nine months like a diamond or pearl,
Being ever the perfectionist she couldn’t leave it at that,
Just the beginning was the teaching of a man on how to act,
Live the Life unto God, always the word
But showed by example, so I could observe,
Showing how to lead and yet how to follow,
Leaving a trail of excellence as a model,
Diva before diva was the word to describe her
Backbone of the Rock; my pops, more on him next month, to follow,
I’m not bragging or boasting just telling you how it is,
Her track record goes back long before I was a kid,
You we’re as hard as they come still showed the softest sides of love
You looked at God and took his example for yours from above,
And though it took me a while to receive the things you said,
I love you the more for not giving up, and leaving me for dead,
You deserve more than a Medal of Honor or Nobel Prize could behold,
The Greatest parts of who are have never been told,
All I have is the hope and love you gave shown in my eyes,
And to sing your praises, giving you your flowers while you thrive.
Love yah Mom,

Written: Sunday, May 8, 2011 at 3:47pm

Vol V: On a Cloudy Day

On a Cloudy Day

The words that are about to be employed
Tickle your mind and cause emotions of inspiration
In this world hard to find is one with patience
Despite situations where others regress
Those giving tasks to take good and leave mess.
Discarding depression from works of man
Recalling all things are in His hand
In the beginning you've already won
Each day bringing you closer to the best that is yet to come.
Some go through life often retreating
Taking the most of what’s been beating
Forgetting who is Lord and also King
Who is Chief and Ruler of everything.
But this fact never escapes you
In your darkness moments it never debates you
Like a fighter in the ring, taking punches and never conceding
Final round scores you the victor with issues relieving
Lost and mistakes no power to stop you from believing.
Look up to the sky, realize that the Son exist,
Even when the clouds cover your eyes and cause them to mist
So shake yourself; for it’s time to move,
This day will be over and a new one starts soon.

Vol I: This Love: Heart Leakage III

XII. Heart Leakage III

There was once a drip and a drop,
But to save it all, I made it stop,
Taking of the best parts of me,
Build a dam and set you free
Slightly stronger than when we first began,
That being said I feel I can’t win,
Because desires to see you happy overwhelms me,
Causing thoughts and actions to be reconsidered,
Of Love’s freedom to truly flow,
Like a river from parts unknown,
To be revealed in a world where it's hardly shown,
Why should paradise go unnourished?
Seeing as I could hold the key to make it flourish,
Simply put and you know it's the truth,
If you ever looked this way you'll never look again,
No delusion like love created from our youth,
Seated at romance's diner new love begins,
Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with my role,
Just frusterated seeing diamonds treated like coal,
Words that produce tears, instead of console,
Or tear down strong, and leave weak along,
To be absent in times of need,
Never known where they're supposed to be
Still for all that said I still count them blessed
To have known you more, where I known less,
Tick Tock goes the clock as my heart drips and also drops,
Giving thoughts to desires that may never stop,
Even though this is only a trilogy,
I seek the series starring you and me

Written: Friday, February 18, 2011 at 7:05am

Vol V: Unmeasured

Unmeasured

Others attempt to try and miserably fail,
What you easily do and always prevail,
With the tears of your eyes, you clean out your soul
Assuring that pain and bitterness never takes hold
One drop of your love can easily drown
Those who are unworthy and act like a clown
But for one whose love has gone dry like a desert
One drop is a gift that can never be measured
In the mist of adversity, you always stand tall
Ready to catch those, if ever they fall
The one thing you lack, but will soon receive,
Is the love you deserve, coming back from me.

Written: Tuesday, March 15, 2011 at 7:19am

Vol II: This Man: Wishful Thinking?

IV. Wishful Thinking?

Dark clouds fade and skies turn to blue
Every time my thoughts drift to you,
No longer in route for more of the same,
My destination is where you remain,
Others crave feelings of falling in love,
Oh so simple without any thought,
Not requiring a pull from the heart, it’s mostly talk,
Huge flames of passion eventually fade,
Without knowledge of how it came to blaze,
Like life through fogged glasses, every things a haze
But I seek the more complex and infinite,
Where infatuation endures a lifetime,
Passion's a daily occurrence and always the right time,
Where desires to be loved are met with double,
While Love's our foundation and never rubbles
Where to love is a pleasure,
Grows without measure,
Where rivers flow,
With no sight of deserts,
More than just a feeling,
The deepest depths of the soul is where it’s found
Where there’s no doubt that I was sent for you
And you for me
That in my arms is the place you've longed to be
Where your heart beat is the key to all that I hold,
Everything between us evaporates and unfolds,
Where faults, wrongs and issues reside our forgiveness
Penalties are lost when our love's the realist,
Where souls connect
And thoughts intertwine,
One man, one woman
And God holds their lives,
People call it wishful thinking, others a myth
But if you’re the one I'm looking for,
It was also your wish.

Written: Thursday, February 3, 2011 at 8:37pm

Vol V: Places Unknown

Vol V: Places Unknown

God? Can you Hear me? It’s me again,
Setting aside my weights and all my sins
I’m still breathing so I know that you’re not through,
So I’ll just take this time to come and talk to you
My destiny within, to fulfill your plan is my mission
Knowing it will take my heart’s full submission,
Which means I’ll have to listen,
Even closer to the words you have to say,
If I'm ever to have anything go my way,
Know of you is one thing, Know you is another
Like learning of your tendencies without a relationship that covers
keeps you from missing me and more importantly, me missing you
To see your face is my primary goal,
So with pleasure I' ll release them all,
Taking the slow walk with you, assuring I won’t fall
But even if I do I'll remember the words to this song
That it’s good to know you’ll be there if ever I fall
But it’s better to know that I don’t have to fall at all,
because you're able to keep me, never leave me, because
It’s hard to focus because of things that remain
Please remove the scars as you heal the pain,
Protect my heart from the things that flood my brain
I know it was you who removed the chains that bind,
You who broke the scales that darken my eyes
You who showed me love, when it was hard to find
Now I see clearly the grace you behold
To guide me through this universe to places unknown.

Written: Sunday, January 23, 2011 at 8:17am

Vol V: The Things I had to know

Vol V: The Things I had to Know


Please forgive me for the things I had to know
Even though I’m writing about it, it wasn’t for show
But there are some things that bug my mind
Like how a woman can write the things even he has yet to find,
Unless he is thinking and talking about love and life
Pondering the lessons that cause so much strife
For things you say, are the things my heart wrote,
Not only in poem, but also in note,
To the fabric of my soul,
Which show the essences of who I am
A man born to love, with no one to give
A man born to love, whose heart has yet to live
I had to know whose heart’s thoughts were in sync with mine
Discarding the fact of your beauty, radiance so divine,
For those things matter so much less,
When you know treasure is the soul behind the flesh,
Not nosy, but thoroughly intrigued,
Figuring learning about you, would be learning about me
Didn’t mean to rattle you, or shake your pretty feathers
Just wondering how many more like you carry my heart’s letters.

Written: January 21, 2011 at 10:41pm

Vol V: This Soul: Someone's Talking

Vol V: Someone's Talking

Sure, I know that right now I shouldn't write it
Refusing to worry about it being stolen or copyrighted
To say these words alone, I'll let them bite it
In the hopes that someone else would want this feeling
That could be so selective and yet liberating.
To be able to have you're emotion live
Saying things your Heart's now free to give
So that the world can see I'm delighted
To have you in my world, a star from heaven
given a soul and manifested
Shining after life's hard knocks and grinds
Giving me insights on your lifetime
Long discussions intelligent stimulation
Some of the many reasons I feel you're the one I've been waiting
Not realizing how much I've allow myself to be deprived
Until I took a glimpse of the world through your eyes
Soft to the touch, with fragrances so lovely
Making me forget the pain that came before me
Short moments together are eternally driven
As the heart develops things for the currently smitten
Still I proceed in trying to preserve love's privacy
Writing in love's language removes all normalcy, of life and mind
Giving focus to the earth for things divinely inspired
Pleading forgiveness for what I want the world to know
before the time that you're schedule to show
But moments of the Heart sweetly reveal real love
Like the one I was given from God above
As He is my example in everything thing I do
Each day I feel my heart falling more in love with you.

Written: Thursday, December 23, 2010 at 8:32am

Vol I: This Love: Lost and Gain I

VIII. Lost and Gain I

Yeah, as the title depicts this one is about lost and gain
I’m not talking about weight, but you can use it the same
Because some things come so easily
Others take years to lose, please believe me
But I’m talking about things you can relate,
Like those moments when first on a date
Where there’s nothing to lose and everything to gain,
If anyone messes up no one’s to blame…maybe
That’s the case when you see me,
My only desire is to be Free
Free to Love, with the type he gave the church is my goal
By my hearts limits not yet founded, not yet to unfold
They seek my attention and think it’s a game,
Wanting more than I can give, not love in His name
I can’t go there with them because I’m not that man
So I really could careless how great the demand
To gain this Man’s Love should be a cherish gift
And there is no doubt it’s one you should wish
Don’t get me wrong yours even more cherish
I spoke of it fondly when I wrote the Rarest
Because to love you more, than you love me is how it should be
Following the example the King left for me
Lost are the moments I can’t control
Lost are the limits that would seek to hold
Something so rich and deep,
It’ll give life to a desert if it were to leak
Lost are the limits that attempting to check
Limits maybe needed with a force that could wreck
Things that shouldn’t be touched and definitely left alone.
Like a Heart that’s name is Love for the one he Loves.

Written: Friday, December 3, 2010 at 3:05pm

Vol V: Deeper I

I. Deeper: Confusion

Waking up in the morning, figured I was fine
But many thoughts began to flood my mind
About things I rather forget from my past
I’m thinking how long will this last
Still attempting to prepare for the day
Hoping furiously the answers came my way
Speaking things in my life to put focus in line
To remove the scales that makes one blind.
But these thoughts just won’t take leave
For this should be simple for one who believes
How can a man who save others, lose his own
Is his destiny to be alone
How can a man exude inspiration,
Find his light dimmed with moments of depression
How can a man who foresaw the end
Not change the results or where to begin
How, how, how can these things be
These are some things I ask when on my knees
Saying I rather give up on myself than give up on you
Oh how I wish those words were true
Don’t get me wrong, when stated it was the truth
The things you believe when in your youth.
Now I sit back and wonder what a mistake
Like midnight snacking, devouring cheesecake
To see the path I took helped me reach this blunder
My Heart torn to pieces, ripped asunder.
Bitter was the taste of It,
No longer sweet I must admit
Far from who I was or knew,
Like a man with no home
Left my heart and soul to roam.

To be Continued...

Written: Thursday, December 2, 2010 at 5:38pm

Vol V: Deeper II

Deeper II: Failure

Like a man with no home
Left my heart and soul to roam...
Silent voices never cheer,
Neither do they tell what they hear
Light always seeks to prevail
But my hope gives up, get boat, set sail.
Saying here is where you shouldn’t be
But new surrounds help you forget, feeling free
On the horizon Pain’s return I see
Unfamiliar with that place, can’t hide or seek
Failures seduction now attaches
Hold on tight locks with latches
Desire and Focus quickly head to the door
Unable to take what they see anymore
Internal screams for relief no one in sight
Left imprisoned day and night
Can’t feel it but know there’s good in me
Faint voice appears telling me where to be
I gave all I had and that wasn’t enough
No longer the strength to be so tough
Finding it hard to breathe,
Like a sword unable to release
As doubt and failure flood my mind
Knowing that I’ve lost for the first time
Never aware of the agony of defeat
When this man always lands on his feet
So while pondering on my next move
I hear a voice that says wake up you fool

To be continued…

Written: Friday, December 3, 2010 at 9:34am

Vol IV: This Soul: Longing

VI. Longing

Can’t stop the longing of my heart
Always knew that from the start
Attempting to muffle, with a feathered pillows,
As if it would be that simple.

Not calling, only to give you space
But my aching heart obviously dialed you by mistake,
Because now I hear your ringtone and it sounds so sweet
Seconds away from hearing you seem like weeks.

If my heart could leave my chest I know it would creep
Seeds of emotions invested, now we reap
Not the one to shy away from what I’m feeling
But these emotions are serious, take care when dealing.

With the matters of the Heart
Where people dare to tread
And others fail to start.
But the gain can be totally insane
Especially if it ends in us sharing last names.

Written: Wednesday, December 1, 2010 at 3:14pm

Vol IV: This Soul: The Roof is on Fire!

V. The Roof is on Fire

Friends say a foolish person runs back into a burning house
I say who in their right or wrong mind couldn't figure that out
For the roof, the roof the roof is on fire, don't want water, just let it burn
In agreement, I say yeah let it burn to the ground
and let all the ashes flutter around
Darken the sky for a second or two
Then after that is done
So long darkness and hello Sun
Enter the greatest moments of my life
Not taking request form Envy and Strife
So I let the building burn
and refuse to return, thanking God for all the lessons learned
But what if I buy a new house with no faulty wiring
Should I have to worry about it burning
If I search, and see no water damage
You would think that it can manage
Life's turns and angles and things it brings in tow
Will it be be enough to start a new life
If you find the right one to the end of time
If I check the foundation and there's no cracks
Making sure its built on the rock instead of sand
When things come up, when it's over where will stand
Now a person could take this route
But I rather do the best choice for me
Build it with God and the person that He chooses to be
Wouldn't care how short or long it would take
Just knowing He is the architect would be worth the wait
Taking the time to develop real love feelings
Not the falling in love feeling that has it's thrill
but many times are short lived.
To know that Agape is the Love that reigns supreme
When two are loving the King of Kings,
It makes it so much for easier to assure
I will forever love my Queen
and her, her King
So don't worry about burning houses
What God builds will never turn to ash
So I focus on my future, to be together at last

Written: Wednesday, December 1, 2010 at 7:16am

Vol I: This Love: The Rarest

IX. The Rarest

The Stars and Moon easily fade away
The moment I caught a glimpse of your face
As you approached me through the night
I knew everything would be alright
For a second I lost track of who I was
When starring a God's gift from above
In my presence my future manifested
My past fears about to be rested.
Loving the feeling of holding you tight
Your future love and shinning knight
A man of honor deserving of his dream
loving his future one and only queen.
My heart flutters and overflows
Feelings for you that no one knows
For years I've searched to no avail,
My heart free to love, no longer jailed
Thanking God constantly because of you
I can't stop thinking about loving you
Beauty untold is what you possess
But what's in your soul is truly the best
Deeper in love with you is my heart's desire
I pray nothing ever quenches our fire
Because love like this is truly hard to find
The rarest of all when waiting for a lifetime

Written: Monday, November 22, 2010 at 11:23am

Vol III: This Woman: I've found

VII. I've found

Getting ready for work this little diddy dropped in my Spirit
So if you have the time, I love for you to hear it
It’s about a story that you may know well
Even though you may not have been to the places they dwell
It’s about a name Naomi and her Daughter in Law Ruth
Who went through so much you’ve went through the roof
With all of the pressures and all of the strains
Even the fact that their life got rearrange.
For getting the past and leaving the old
They decided to go to new places untold
Ruth let her family and went on a prayer
Where ever Naomi went, Ruth was right there
The burden wasn’t easy, the problems hard to bare
Until they found someone who really cared
He supported them without being nervous
Showed love to them by acts of service
He did what he had to get close to Ruth
The only one that caught his eye and told him the truth
Pay what ever the cost to be her redeemer
Cause he wanted to be with her and never leave her
There’s more to this story but my time is short
God knows timing and that’s no joke
So if you see Naomi finally appear
Just know that your Ruth is suddenly here.

Written: Friday, November 19, 2010 at 6:36am

Vol II: This Man: Live Again! (Life Version)

VIII. Live Again! (Life Version)

Woke up with a word so heavy
Forget Katrina this can break any levy
I've never seen so many people ready to die
Not for Christ, but because they refuse to Live
Placing yokes on you he never insisted,
And by closing your mind right now you'll probably missed It.
As time goes by went forgot his intentions
The things in the beginning he first mention
Created was the world, for us to enjoy
Excuse me in Him, through us for girls and boys
When Adam fell, he got us off track,
The track that could've allowed us to enjoy a world with no lack
When Jesus came, He came so that we could have Life and them sum
Yet people rather sit around and be ho hum
Don't live your life like you're already in a coffin
The Life in Him has so much to offer
Me? I've died once in Him and took care of my penalty
So there's nothing in Him that sin can do me
I live my life by God, who love and His best
So life doesn't always have to be a test
And if you see me living life to the fullest
Know that God is the one who's pulling this
This is a word to settle your confusion
So if you're alive in Him let's Do This!

Written: Friday, November 19, 2010 at 5:24am

Vol II: This Man: If you only knew

X. If you only knew

Really I'm just writing so I hope you don't mind
It's easier to vent this way and leave it behind
Somethings come to my head that I'm thinking about
So let me peep you into what I'm talking about

I think about you in the morning when I rise
Communication with you is always my prize
My day is much clearer the sooner we talk
Don't care what happens as long as we walk

You bring a peace that no one can give
Understanding now, this is the reason I live
You're always on my mind I'm happy to say
You're the only that's my main stay

You guide my future and release my past
Without you, I don't know how long I can last
Every moment with you is truly divine
Every moment after that can get in line

I love the fact that you found me
Love even more that you first love me
What are the chances that we would meet
You knew from the start you're the one for me

Connection with you is always the key
If I'm to be the man I'm Destined to be
Anticipation of seeing you is all I seek
Knowing I love you makes me weep

There are so much more for us to explorer
Like me holding your hand through all life's doors
I really don't think you know what I mean
When I'm talking about my Savior, my Lord and King

Written: Thursday, November 18, 2010 at 6:45am

Vol. II: This Man: Can you handle this?

XII. Can you handle this?

I'll try an temper my feeling
In an attempt not to drown you.
I'll hate for you to run from them
Now that I've finally found you.
What ever the case
Just know that they're there
And if you're ready to feel them
I'm ready to share
The average women wouldn't last
But for one moment
So if you're really the one
You might be the strongest
So please don't get startled
If I'm falling faster than you.
It's only because I'll be there
To catch you when you fall too

Written: Wednesday, November 17, 2010 at 5:05am

Vol IV: This Soul: Early

II. Early

Don’t mind me just have a seat
Give me a minute and I’ll be on my feet
Sitting here trying to gather my feelings
All over the floor and some on the ceiling
Special delivery from you to me
So vast in number they’ll drown a sea
I’ve come to the conclusion that they arrive premature
Even though they surely helped me endure
They now have become the things I most fear
Even when friends stand by and cheer
Seems everyone really wants me to be happy
Am I that loved or are they that sappy
Sometimes I wish I could go back to me myself and I,
Avoiding the sound of my dove’s cry
Love, romance, friendship shouldn’t be for the confused
Even the attempts, not to have them abuse
Like a flower that blooms on a warm winter day
I know my feelings arrived before my mind had its’ say
So now that I got the situation seemly under control
I think it’s about time that I go

Written: Sunday, November 14, 2010 at 7:21pm

Vol II: This Man: The Chances are...?

XI. The Chances are...?

What are the chances of me finding you?
Far from home and being alone I see you come through
Seeing fit that I should not be alone
I'm happy my heart found it's home
Great conversation, and filled with intelligence
Your smile gives me feelings that are heaven sent
Seeing your beauty glow from the moon light
I starred into your eyes and the moment feels right
I wanted that feeling for the rest of my life
Thinking that what is and will be is worth the fight
My Future is what I call you, others may try but they're not you
Was this chance or destiny?
The question answer the second we met
Because nothing happens by happenstance
But as that love comes from my overflow from God
You get the purest form from me and its not odd
What are the chances that I could have missed this
What are the chances your friend would have came
If he did, would the outcome have been the same
What are the chances I would be alone
You sending a life line so I wouldn't be alone
You’re up front and there’s no drama
I don’t have worry where I stand
We both know I want to be your man
What are the chances that I would have written
The things that have both you and I smitten
Not thinking about who, not realizing I was already talking to you
If I steal your heart away, I'll return it in kind
Hoping you'll give to me freely What I feel is mine
I'm glad you pull from me the things I normally give free
What are the chances that we could forget our past
How much longer and stronger could we last
What are the chances that what we start will advance
What are the chances for a long romance
What are the chances that It was all in His plan
What are the chances that after all we've been through?
We could make our dreams come true
What are the chances of you feeling me, like I felt you
Realizing you're the one for me and I for you.
What are the chances of me and you
With love's design it could be so true
Knowing in my heart I want only you
just as you are....near....or far"

Written: Tuesday, November 16, 2010 at 7:23am

Vol I: This Love: Just Between You and Me

X. Just Between You and Me

Okay, sorry if this doesn't rhymn this time
I just have some things pouring from my mind.
At times I think too much about things
Like what will be, is and should have been.
I don't want to waste your time or mine,
I just hope that you're doing find.
Really I think I'm sick,
but for what ales me there's no fix.
Yeah I'm addicted to your presence
I still remember your lovely essence.
Constantly fighting the urge to contact you
While secretly wishing you contact me too.
If you're not feeling this it's for the best
My heart only has one place to find rest.
Yeah I should be sleep, but who could
with the sounds of my heart calling through the night.
Wishing that's you'll bite.
Though I've tried, it won't shut up.
Even though I never intended to move this fast,
I see you and forget the past.
Thoughts about how my life would change,
Should you ever come again.
Is what I feel for real,
Are you worthy even still.
Could these feeling be this strong,
Even when friends say move along.
Telling me there's 3 of you for every 1"T",
These types of saying amazes me.
But if what I'm feeling could fade that easily
That means I lied to you and lied to me.
How do I get you from showing up in every love song?
How do I see your picture and don't have flashbacks?
Why can't I be like the others?...I wonder?...
They have someone and move to the next one,
I see you and feel I've found the best one.
Am I fooling myself thinking that you're Mrs. Right?
What are the chances on this Night?
Could it be, that I was made to love,
A gift in the works to you from God above?
I'm still trying to figure it all out,
My heart says Hello when it shouts.
These are my hearts thoughts and rambles,
Sometimes for Love's sake you take this gamble.
If you're wondering if the whole world can see,
Don't worry this note is just between you and me.

Written: Wednesday, November 10, 2010 at 11:58pm