Because of Love

The taste of the air lingers the sweet fragrance of her presence,
Leaving me speechless, mesmerized,
Grasping for the reasons my thoughts are suspended.
Trying to breathe new life into soul,
You are for me, a source of wonderful beyond my comprehension.

Thankful for God, who answers prayers I only mentioned,
The simple things, stored in the depths of my soul,
Oh how He pays close attention.
He's brought this precious gift into my life,
His words saying "You've waited so long, behold it's your time,
Preparation for everything for this moment, found you the perfect wife."

Tears of joy, fall like rain from my eyes,
As He shows me I was never left alone
Bringing to me the one my heart belongs,
Created from the beginning of time,
It's so sweet to know He had me in mind,

My Father in Heaven has blessed me as only Heaven could,
Night to Day, I never understood,
How could He do theses things,
Why would He do these things.

For I am only a man,
Dirt and water highly refine as he design,
As I see her, love her,
Knowing she loves me as deeply as any human could,
Only lets me know the gravity of his thoughts for me,
Will you marry me?

Crazy Stupid Love

It's been a moment,  
Leaking my feelings,
Lately I know where to send them.  
Telling my story,
Knowing my soul refuses let me lie.
Seeds to the ground,
Fruitful this relationship we reap. 
Spoiled to this new life you give, 
While honesty remains my policy.  
Let your truth roll from my lips,  
Never letting a day go by. 
As you seep into my consciousness,
Sub or otherwise.  
Always enamored by you,
Sensory overload, that's just you,
Still never enough just to think of you.
All my wants, let loose these desires,
Surely a mission impossible. 
The feeling's so real, never duplicated,
Inconceivable to inpausible.  
Faith in her Love, soothes my mind,
Encapsulation of the intent of the Divine.
Wholly, and truly,
All I am is yours,
All I will ever be, it's your pleasure to explore. 
Fountains pour the unlimited possibilities,
As pages continue to turn for a book with no ending,
Love as an eternal presence, forges a new beginning.
After the storm, clearer what's to cherish.
She wears a crown to realms of my soul,
Heiress to the riches my heart holds.  
Fall deeper with me,
As I love you more than Love even knew,
Making others wonder if this is obtainable for them too.
It's you and I, together intertwined,
Boundless beyond the borders of the breaking day's sky.

Don't Mind if...

Innocent eyes, revealing a heart's longed desires,
But I've heard my share of liars.
Burn those pains away,
Her love is a flame I can see from miles away.
Making me lift my head to the night's sky,
Tell the world Hello, kiss the past behind.
She's too humble to admit her magnificent,
Making me love her ever the more.
Unleash the feelings I didn't remember I had stored,
Pour into her, let my love over flow.
The world is the beneficiary, of this new me,
Because I'm better man, than what I use to be.
Something friends often repeat,
As they didn't observe this happier side of me.
And if I'm honest, which is what you causes me to do,
I'll have to agree, because you bring out the best of me.
And those who skipped this scene,
Will never know the love you've seen.
Or will never experience, what wonders we create,
When it's God's plan we follow, let's set this date.
Rings and bells, from day one you've meant that to me.
Because easier to know who God has placed,
When you know what He's created for this day.
No longer hidden, no wait and see,
Because all I'll ever need to come stands before me.
I do.

Reckless Behavior

My soul's an inferno that cannot be quenched.
A fury of passion, the likes of which it has never known.  
Yet it is not consumed, 
Finding it calls for her,
Pleading her, to feed its emotions,
Beckoning, for the kindness of her tender touch.

And I,  finding myself staring into her eyes,
Realize she may never fully comprehend how much it cost,
Truthfully even I do not truly understand, 

How far I've traveled to be in her mist.
A road paved with desire, and failure,
My pains and griefs,
Disappointments beyond comprehension.

This I choose not to convey,
These thoughts, my memories,
A graveyard of past relationships,  
Let that be only for my eyes to see.
For this union, defined from the dawn of creation,
Shall be rendered my new beginning.

Forgetting those things which are behind me, I press,
Forward against my apprehension.
Quickly loosing my tension,
Releasing the grip to the daily experience which I call my life.
Recklessly, without notion of fear,
As if I have never been damaged.

Writing, but never seeing the fruits, 

Of one who speaks my name with beautiful lips. 

Causing me to question, ponder, wonder,
Should I continue to hope? 

Should I proceed in love?  
Does it even matter?
Answers fall from the sky,
As you, the gift to my life you now abide,

Giving meaning to why I live, and for who I'll die. 

Conflicted Contradictions

Years pass seeming like centuries,
As the cost of our union left me broken,
So many things were left unspoken.

Leaving me defenseless,
Unable to stand, but fighting to anyway.
I was attacked on all sides, bombarded by the lies.

Slowly slipping to my demise,
Wounded to unconscious understanding,
As I've come to realize I'm all that's left.

Attempting to run from the memory of you,
I am blinded by this new view.
Another comes to sight, surrounded by light,

Arming me with half a shield, and broken sword.
Pushing me to fight,
Although it's more than I had before.

I want more,
Caught between confused, and frustrated,
I picked up the pieces, as his sword and shield grow within,

And a new dawn begins,
My mind begins to settle,
But my heart craves more,

Vowing to never hurt again, I hush its cries.
Finally content, I bask in his light,
But nothing in my life ever turns out right.

From a tap on my shoulder, and whisper in my ear,
My eyes set its sights on my perpetrator,
Marveling at his transformation,

If it weren't my own eyes, I'd swear this was also a lie,
How could this be,
What does he want from me?

For it's still inconceivable for me to believe,
The once famed slayer of my heart,
Now presents himself a changed man, pure, reformed.

My new found savior, and a reformed slayer,
The possibly of new, and a love I once knew
My heart's found conflicted, as I'm caught between the two.

Forever You: Boundless

Intricate, so delicate, fragile to touch,
Shielded away, a place where I dare not see,
But travel anyway.
You've been hurt, unbearable pain,
Shared that grief, it knows you too personally.
Every man, every disappointment,
I'm sure it wasn't their intent.
So you offered your heart forever,
They only meant it lent.
And for that I lament,
Embracing the anguish.
So I can find the remedy to extinguish,
Every concern you ever had about this love.
I've waited my whole life,
For you waiting longer is nothing.
As you're everything to me,
Finding the one my soul loveth.
The woman I've written about for so many years,
Now having uncovered your identity,
Search for that day you'll be next to me.
Not just to be loved,
To feel the warmth of your love.
A gift, that should never be shared,
Deeply in love, for you I'll always care.
But that all I have, all the creator has placed in me,
Poured in to this vessel,
Allow me to pour into you.
Boundless without limits,
As I breath my love for you will continue.
Happiness for you, that's all I'm pursuing,
Would you rather I said you make me happy?
Or that you're the illumination to my soul,
Shiny brighter than any star Heaven could unfold?
Yet I'm a simple man,
Formed from the dust, yet here I stand.
Ready to be all you could ever want, and need,
Seeing I was born to love you, I more than believe.

Broken

I fall weakened, tortured by the sound,
As my heart pounds repeatedly in my throat,
Prepared to burst upon all I hold dear.
Tears that would fall are stalled.
Fractured into a millions pieces,
Now dust, my soul sprinkles.
Like rain that should give life,
But darkness is all I feel,
When right at this time I don't want to feel.
Wondering how am I to live,
Feeling empty, I have nothing left to give.
These are the workings of my soul,
The things, that should be left untold.
I would never give another the chance,
You can have your "Happy Endings" and "Blissful Romance".
I can't see, I can't hear,
Embraced in the darkness.
I used to call for the light,
But I've become too accustomed to the night.
Thinking this is how it always ends,
No longer at Love trying to win.
I only hurt, if I try,
I only cry, when Love dies.
God take this pain away,
I should have never gone my own way.
Will you hear my plea,
Bloodied from too many times crawling on my knees.
Help me, this can't be where you want me to be,
How can loving someone bring this much grief.
Broken beyond repair, calling for sleep,
If I never wake up, will the world even weep.
But I'm only one, so life will go on,
So I find comfort in knowing that in time I can survive, if I just hold on.

Wonderful Woman

There's a patience forged through the years,
Steamed over sizzling coals of my disappoints.

Laid sightless to anyone and everyone,
As rain drops descend from my eyes,
Nurturing others, but leaves me dry.

Time breaks free from eternity,
Until that moment I saw you,
Everything's frozen, nothing moves.

My soul caught glimpses of your identity,
Undercover disguises mean little to me,
You were the last mystery, now revelation,
Suggest I move quietly, much hesitation,

Like snow falling from blue skies,
Gently rest in the crevices of my soul.
Her warmth for healing, damaged past sealing,

Never having to utter a single word,
I'll recognize her voice anyplace, at any time.
Silent I am, left speechless submersed in her glow.

Forever she breathes life into me when she speaks,
Because my soul already knows she's the one we seek.

The Winter's Song Series: Chapters I-X

Chapter I: Hypocrisy

Chapter II: Apologetically

Chapter III: Dehydration

Chapter IV: Useless

Chapter V: Discovery

Chapter VI: Carolina Blue

Chapter VII: In my View

Chapter VII: The Evacuation of Mourning: Part I

Chapter IX: The Evacuation of Mourning: Part II (In the Process of Time)

Chapter X: The Evacuation of Mourning: Part III (I am He)

Winter's Song: Chapter X: The Evacuation of Mourning: Part III

Part III: I am He

My life is a series of breadcrumbs, often eaten by birds.
Taking away what's necessary to survive.
Screams pierce through for the Bread of Life,
Often finding myself living a lie.

Conscious from an early age of who I should be,
But the paths to get there I could never see.
Placing my life on hold,
Attempting to grab something warm, soon turned cold.

I am positive I'm the sum of my victories and failures,
Even though which were what, I couldn't tell you.
Love which seemed limitless,
Causing grief when I wanted to give less.

My destiny, she calls to my future to grab my attention,
But neither could get close to me.
I wanted more than what I had,
Be a better husband, a greater Dad.

I failed grievously, miserably,
Laughing to keep from choking on my tears.
Asking God why did he leave, was my life a joke?

My life you could have,
Wishing I could figure out how to cut it off soon,
Like constantly looking for the Sun, but only finding the Moon.

How was I to persevere?
At times not thankful for my own life.
Wondering if I left, would I leave a mark,
Or would I just be the subject of gossip and talk.
Scraping the barrel, reaching for whatever I could,

Not thinking about the things I really should.
Days seem deary, night was all that was near me.
Attempting to Love, when I didn't know her name,
If I wrote it down, It would still be the same.

I wasn't worthy to take anyone's hand,
Working so hard to be a better man,
Looking to God for His original plan.
No one knew the depths of my soul,

How far I fell, giving the norm was the way to go.
Faking it, attempting to make it,
So glad God didn't take it.
Because this Love is all I have,

The greatest gift He embedded into this soul.
Finally awaking to the light He created in me,
Understanding I could be anything He wanted me to be,
So when He spoke into my life He said, I am He.


The End

Part I: The Evacuation of Mourning
Part II: In the Process of Time

Winter's Song: Chapter IX: The Evacuation of Mourning: Part II

Part II: In the Process of Time

Contemplation mixed with anticipation,
Constantly feeling I'm always waiting.
Times expires, as her foot steps draw near.
Slow the quicken beat of my heart,
Like tree sap on a fridge day.
Least it leap from my chest, and swiftly carried away. .

Should I rise, what strength is there for love?

Sorely drained from past contestants,
Do I even desire to make another investment?
But slowly feeling my grief recede,
Love returning to my heart, like the tide to the sea.

For she speaks in a tone, that thaws pain away.
Whispering words that console my aching soul.
A mirror image, possibly created in my image.
Like Eve to Adam, was she made for me?

Struggling to let go of where I've been,
Though our paths were different, the end is still the same,
I seeing the stars at night spell out her name.
Our eyes dances, showing visions of hope for brighter days.

She causes me to reconsider all I once knew,
If time permits can I get a little closer to you?
As she in bodies all that should ever be,
God guided our direction, that's what I believe.

Forgetting what was sought, definitely what I need,
My mind calls for her to stay, don't leave.
Warming my cold heart, she is that fire.
She waits patiently as the day bows to her command.

Resolving my conflict, she's the decision.
Her confidence is pure, grabbing my admiration.
Making me incline to hear what her heart has to say,
For she is that umbrella, for past rainy days.
Clearing skies, the moon's in full view,
But nothing compares to the Love I've found in you.

Part I: The Evacuation of Mourning

Winter's Song: Chapter VIII: The Evacuation of Mourning: Part I

Absence of light,
A black hole becomes my soul.
Drowning in the depths of emotions.
Tied in chains to my worries,
Weighing me down, gravity knows me too well.

My heart's worn,
Aged like clothes faded from countless rain.
My dehydrated soul dried in the desert Sun,
Covered in sand, quickly take me away.
Constantly leading the search for a place of relief.

She scorches upon the surface of my mind.
Charred thoughts leave their residue,
Reminding me I'm still alive.
I'm a hostage to her memory,
A guilty prisoner of my own actions.
Consequences of heeding calls of my own passion.

Sanctuary?
Hope where I can reside?
I sought for that refuge,
A pilgrim lost on his journey.
While mushroom clouds soar off in the horizon.

Falling from my grasp, I couldn't maintain,
Fear of lost, this burden too hard to hold.
Solitude a status that relinquishes my Hope,
Yet I miss her, I can't let it end this way.
And the Love won't let me be....

Winter's Song: Chapter VII: In my View

Sore eyes for longing days, ever glad to see,
As I have never been graced with such an honor as this.
Seeing her exquisiteness, hand carved magnificence,
Minutes evaporate, left speechless at His creation.
Foolishly hearing her swear she's "just plain",
Like she's the norm and other could be the same.
I rebuttal profusely, furiously unequivocally,
For what's said plain, is oh so beautiful.
The realest beauty, without contention,
Immaculate in its' purest intention.
Walking into my life, at times wondering what it's meant,
As I fall into her eyes and feel her strength.
Pools of endless emotions, trials through the years,
Visions of paths traveled and trails full of tears.
Compassion and passion, shared with those she loves,
Often wondering could I be one that she loves?
Hold the question, let that be one for another day,
If found worthy, maybe she'll love me the same way.
Hints of sorrow,
Instantly comforting for her better,
Silence is her weapon choice, leaving traces all mute.
Struggling to smile, covering where she's most vulnerable,
As her skin glistens under the stars, I find I'm most humbled.
She dances on the edge, between beauty and grace,
One look in her direction, puts a smile on my face.
Curves of her face are so delightful to behold,
God has given her features, in measure untold.
Holding fast to her smile, formed with lush lips,
Her hair raised, so her charmed is never hidden.
I am enamored, my soul can't possibly handle,
She is without a doubt or reservation, so splendidly gorgeous.
Written from my soul, I swear these things are true,
For I'm only attempting to describe, what I see In my View.

For All-Time ( Valentine's Day Poem)

It's completely unfair, the way you make me feel,
Just looking at you makes it hard to breathe.
How am I to remain composed?
When there's a yearning for you deep in my soul.

My blood moves quickly, give life to my beating heart,
My love for you has no end, there's no way to stop.
When I see you, I see no other,
For my eyes, there could never be another.

Endless ties, for all time,
Saying will you be my Valentine,
Not for today, but every day,
My soul only has this to say.

Adored more than roses, or chocolate candies,
Everything I have is yours, I pour out within me.
Needless to convey, I'm solely devoured,
By this emotions and its amazing power.

There is no possible way to control,
The burning within, I will just let it flow.
As all roads clear paths to you,
I'll be steadfast and enjoy the view.

You once said you've never encountered one as me,
My thoughts are mutual, a you're rarity I find hard to see.
Probably explaining why you're constantly on my mind,
Live in my heart, thoughts of dreams come true.

Pledging my eternal allegiance,
For your happiness, is my pleasure.
And your sorrow, is my burden,
To see your Joy, I'm constantly learning.

For today like any day, I'm simply saying what's on my mind,
In hopes that each day, you're my Valentine for all-time.

Winter's Song: Chapter VI: Carolina Blue

Traveled down dusty tobacco roads,
Where you're the only thing smoking.
Your beauty is a conundrum,
Seeing words to describe, have yet to be invented.

Your voice always soothes on the roughest days.
I'm never myself, sometimes more than myself.
As rationality escapes my mentality,
My punishment, wanting to know you more than before.

If I owned a thousand planes, you'll still be the only place I want to go.
Friendly skies for lovely eyes,
Warm heart, holding my ice cold hands,
Looking into your soul, I just want to be your man,
You're non traditional, never conventional.
Stronger than steel, yet silk to the touch,
Harder than Diamonds, yet softer than clouds,

Tell me again how much you care.
Always calling upon the best of me,
While others call for the rest of me.
Seeking my attention, but bankrupted gladly spent on you,
The more I focus, the more you come into view.

But the more engulfed in you, you may think less of me.
As I find that I'm more selfish than I ever knew,
When I realize I only want to be closer to you.
Pouting immaturely, because distance gets in my way.
Causing my countenance to fall, blissful thoughts fade away.

I'm cornered in self induced over thinking,
Tripping where I should stand.
Constantly warring against myself,
Something one of your caliber should never have to deal,
But you're the only person I can tell what's real.

You're the goal, that's yet to be obtained,
Knowing I don't want to live without you ever again.
Rather, will you be mine,
14th of February, for all time?

You've always been the greatest gift this man could find.
Years and Decades pass, your love stands against them all.
Admittedly loving you makes me more than dysfunctional.
Feeling guilt for thoughts I can never control.
When my fondest emotions are always of you,

Are followed by those in Carolina Blue.