Vol VI: This Muse: On Clouds of Air

II. On Clouds of Air

I don’t care how I got here
And I’m not scared,
Floating above the world,
On mere air,
Feeling love has got me hazy,
but I’m aware.
Happiness with you,
My only care,
Finding what’s true is worth its wait,
Is what I've learned,
Emotions adorned in loving you,
I’m glad to share,
My journey for completion,
Is almost near,
Passing broken roads and bridges,
Beyond repair,
The sounds of a heart’s reconstruction,
Is what you hear,
Scales falling off my eyes,
My life is clear,
The possibilities of what could be,
Too hard to compare,
High above the earth I see,
On Clouds of Air.

Inspired by Rebuild me (Remix) by J. Moss
Written: Sunday, May 15, 2011 at 7:35am

Loving You

Loving You

Loving you is no longer an option,
If I had others, I still wouldn’t stop it,
Everything dropping, you have my attention,
More than that, if you give minutes to listen,
Your affections for me have struck its tone,
Our hearts connected like a celluar phone,
Not even sure how we got this far
So deep in my heart, finding you the only one,
Never believed in luck, but if I did,
I’ll bet it all on this moment, and it’s time to live,
Relinquishing status of being single,
Two hearts now mingle,
While others broken, seeing it’s now official,
Saying they miss you, they now find tissues,
This is true and after all the drama,
Fresh air comes through and leaves us calmer,
Every heart’s door opens, you have the key,
Stay as long as you please, with you is where I want to be,
Constantly changing to give you my best,
No breaks, or stops, no need for rest,
Not one for broken promises, hopelessness and lost wishes,
Ever the achiever, your happiness my mission,
Men search the world looking for a wife,
I search the heart, for one to share a life,

Written: Wednesday, May 11, 2011 at 6:50pm

Vol V: Fluent

Fluent

Everyone wants to know what’s valued inside,
Contents revealed releases a heart’s prize,
Like a book that stands for all the world to see,
There is only one that can completely read,
Others make attempts but can’t understand,
Eventually give up because of time’s great demand,
Some notice it's familiar to others they’ve seen,
Translate few passages intrigued to gleam,
But later give up reaching for the door,
Unable able to fully grasp deeper levels in store,
For the one in whom it was intended,
Has gone through pain and knows how to mend it,
Brings clear skies to what’s seen rain,
And words of life when all have gone away,
Hands designed to comfort and strengthen when weak,
Acts of compassion that are thoughtful and sweet,
Give feelings of a world being beneath your feet,
Knowing how to receive as much as to give,
Realizing when it’s true and not on a whim,
One who’s found this book with no sort of ease,
But by using their heart, to only believe,
For others attempted but nearly cause ruin,
But you’ve found your counterpart, because you’re also fluent,
And when reading yours, the language is the same,
Because knowing in the heart is where true love came.

Written: Tuesday, May 3, 2011 at 8:58pm

Mother's Day Tribute Day

Mother's Day Tribute Day

Now it’s time to say how I feel
Open the fountains of my heart, let it reveal,
Talking about a woman who knew me before I knew right,
Talking about the woman who aided God in giving me life,
You call her many things, but I call her Mom,
First woman I ever loved and showed me the world,
Carried me nine months like a diamond or pearl,
Being ever the perfectionist she couldn’t leave it at that,
Just the beginning was the teaching of a man on how to act,
Live the Life unto God, always the word
But showed by example, so I could observe,
Showing how to lead and yet how to follow,
Leaving a trail of excellence as a model,
Diva before diva was the word to describe her
Backbone of the Rock; my pops, more on him next month, to follow,
I’m not bragging or boasting just telling you how it is,
Her track record goes back long before I was a kid,
You we’re as hard as they come still showed the softest sides of love
You looked at God and took his example for yours from above,
And though it took me a while to receive the things you said,
I love you the more for not giving up, and leaving me for dead,
You deserve more than a Medal of Honor or Nobel Prize could behold,
The Greatest parts of who are have never been told,
All I have is the hope and love you gave shown in my eyes,
And to sing your praises, giving you your flowers while you thrive.
Love yah Mom,

Written: Sunday, May 8, 2011 at 3:47pm

Vol V: On a Cloudy Day

On a Cloudy Day

The words that are about to be employed
Tickle your mind and cause emotions of inspiration
In this world hard to find is one with patience
Despite situations where others regress
Those giving tasks to take good and leave mess.
Discarding depression from works of man
Recalling all things are in His hand
In the beginning you've already won
Each day bringing you closer to the best that is yet to come.
Some go through life often retreating
Taking the most of what’s been beating
Forgetting who is Lord and also King
Who is Chief and Ruler of everything.
But this fact never escapes you
In your darkness moments it never debates you
Like a fighter in the ring, taking punches and never conceding
Final round scores you the victor with issues relieving
Lost and mistakes no power to stop you from believing.
Look up to the sky, realize that the Son exist,
Even when the clouds cover your eyes and cause them to mist
So shake yourself; for it’s time to move,
This day will be over and a new one starts soon.

Vol I: This Love: Heart Leakage III

XII. Heart Leakage III

There was once a drip and a drop,
But to save it all, I made it stop,
Taking of the best parts of me,
Build a dam and set you free
Slightly stronger than when we first began,
That being said I feel I can’t win,
Because desires to see you happy overwhelms me,
Causing thoughts and actions to be reconsidered,
Of Love’s freedom to truly flow,
Like a river from parts unknown,
To be revealed in a world where it's hardly shown,
Why should paradise go unnourished?
Seeing as I could hold the key to make it flourish,
Simply put and you know it's the truth,
If you ever looked this way you'll never look again,
No delusion like love created from our youth,
Seated at romance's diner new love begins,
Don’t get me wrong, I am ok with my role,
Just frusterated seeing diamonds treated like coal,
Words that produce tears, instead of console,
Or tear down strong, and leave weak along,
To be absent in times of need,
Never known where they're supposed to be
Still for all that said I still count them blessed
To have known you more, where I known less,
Tick Tock goes the clock as my heart drips and also drops,
Giving thoughts to desires that may never stop,
Even though this is only a trilogy,
I seek the series starring you and me

Written: Friday, February 18, 2011 at 7:05am

Vol V: Unmeasured

Unmeasured

Others attempt to try and miserably fail,
What you easily do and always prevail,
With the tears of your eyes, you clean out your soul
Assuring that pain and bitterness never takes hold
One drop of your love can easily drown
Those who are unworthy and act like a clown
But for one whose love has gone dry like a desert
One drop is a gift that can never be measured
In the mist of adversity, you always stand tall
Ready to catch those, if ever they fall
The one thing you lack, but will soon receive,
Is the love you deserve, coming back from me.

Written: Tuesday, March 15, 2011 at 7:19am

Vol II: This Man: Wishful Thinking?

IV. Wishful Thinking?

Dark clouds fade and skies turn to blue
Every time my thoughts drift to you,
No longer in route for more of the same,
My destination is where you remain,
Others crave feelings of falling in love,
Oh so simple without any thought,
Not requiring a pull from the heart, it’s mostly talk,
Huge flames of passion eventually fade,
Without knowledge of how it came to blaze,
Like life through fogged glasses, every things a haze
But I seek the more complex and infinite,
Where infatuation endures a lifetime,
Passion's a daily occurrence and always the right time,
Where desires to be loved are met with double,
While Love's our foundation and never rubbles
Where to love is a pleasure,
Grows without measure,
Where rivers flow,
With no sight of deserts,
More than just a feeling,
The deepest depths of the soul is where it’s found
Where there’s no doubt that I was sent for you
And you for me
That in my arms is the place you've longed to be
Where your heart beat is the key to all that I hold,
Everything between us evaporates and unfolds,
Where faults, wrongs and issues reside our forgiveness
Penalties are lost when our love's the realist,
Where souls connect
And thoughts intertwine,
One man, one woman
And God holds their lives,
People call it wishful thinking, others a myth
But if you’re the one I'm looking for,
It was also your wish.

Written: Thursday, February 3, 2011 at 8:37pm

Vol V: Places Unknown

Vol V: Places Unknown

God? Can you Hear me? It’s me again,
Setting aside my weights and all my sins
I’m still breathing so I know that you’re not through,
So I’ll just take this time to come and talk to you
My destiny within, to fulfill your plan is my mission
Knowing it will take my heart’s full submission,
Which means I’ll have to listen,
Even closer to the words you have to say,
If I'm ever to have anything go my way,
Know of you is one thing, Know you is another
Like learning of your tendencies without a relationship that covers
keeps you from missing me and more importantly, me missing you
To see your face is my primary goal,
So with pleasure I' ll release them all,
Taking the slow walk with you, assuring I won’t fall
But even if I do I'll remember the words to this song
That it’s good to know you’ll be there if ever I fall
But it’s better to know that I don’t have to fall at all,
because you're able to keep me, never leave me, because
It’s hard to focus because of things that remain
Please remove the scars as you heal the pain,
Protect my heart from the things that flood my brain
I know it was you who removed the chains that bind,
You who broke the scales that darken my eyes
You who showed me love, when it was hard to find
Now I see clearly the grace you behold
To guide me through this universe to places unknown.

Written: Sunday, January 23, 2011 at 8:17am

Vol V: The Things I had to know

Vol V: The Things I had to Know


Please forgive me for the things I had to know
Even though I’m writing about it, it wasn’t for show
But there are some things that bug my mind
Like how a woman can write the things even he has yet to find,
Unless he is thinking and talking about love and life
Pondering the lessons that cause so much strife
For things you say, are the things my heart wrote,
Not only in poem, but also in note,
To the fabric of my soul,
Which show the essences of who I am
A man born to love, with no one to give
A man born to love, whose heart has yet to live
I had to know whose heart’s thoughts were in sync with mine
Discarding the fact of your beauty, radiance so divine,
For those things matter so much less,
When you know treasure is the soul behind the flesh,
Not nosy, but thoroughly intrigued,
Figuring learning about you, would be learning about me
Didn’t mean to rattle you, or shake your pretty feathers
Just wondering how many more like you carry my heart’s letters.

Written: January 21, 2011 at 10:41pm

Vol V: This Soul: Someone's Talking

Vol V: Someone's Talking

Sure, I know that right now I shouldn't write it
Refusing to worry about it being stolen or copyrighted
To say these words alone, I'll let them bite it
In the hopes that someone else would want this feeling
That could be so selective and yet liberating.
To be able to have you're emotion live
Saying things your Heart's now free to give
So that the world can see I'm delighted
To have you in my world, a star from heaven
given a soul and manifested
Shining after life's hard knocks and grinds
Giving me insights on your lifetime
Long discussions intelligent stimulation
Some of the many reasons I feel you're the one I've been waiting
Not realizing how much I've allow myself to be deprived
Until I took a glimpse of the world through your eyes
Soft to the touch, with fragrances so lovely
Making me forget the pain that came before me
Short moments together are eternally driven
As the heart develops things for the currently smitten
Still I proceed in trying to preserve love's privacy
Writing in love's language removes all normalcy, of life and mind
Giving focus to the earth for things divinely inspired
Pleading forgiveness for what I want the world to know
before the time that you're schedule to show
But moments of the Heart sweetly reveal real love
Like the one I was given from God above
As He is my example in everything thing I do
Each day I feel my heart falling more in love with you.

Written: Thursday, December 23, 2010 at 8:32am

Vol I: This Love: Lost and Gain I

VIII. Lost and Gain I

Yeah, as the title depicts this one is about lost and gain
I’m not talking about weight, but you can use it the same
Because some things come so easily
Others take years to lose, please believe me
But I’m talking about things you can relate,
Like those moments when first on a date
Where there’s nothing to lose and everything to gain,
If anyone messes up no one’s to blame…maybe
That’s the case when you see me,
My only desire is to be Free
Free to Love, with the type he gave the church is my goal
By my hearts limits not yet founded, not yet to unfold
They seek my attention and think it’s a game,
Wanting more than I can give, not love in His name
I can’t go there with them because I’m not that man
So I really could careless how great the demand
To gain this Man’s Love should be a cherish gift
And there is no doubt it’s one you should wish
Don’t get me wrong yours even more cherish
I spoke of it fondly when I wrote the Rarest
Because to love you more, than you love me is how it should be
Following the example the King left for me
Lost are the moments I can’t control
Lost are the limits that would seek to hold
Something so rich and deep,
It’ll give life to a desert if it were to leak
Lost are the limits that attempting to check
Limits maybe needed with a force that could wreck
Things that shouldn’t be touched and definitely left alone.
Like a Heart that’s name is Love for the one he Loves.

Written: Friday, December 3, 2010 at 3:05pm

Vol V: Deeper I

I. Deeper: Confusion

Waking up in the morning, figured I was fine
But many thoughts began to flood my mind
About things I rather forget from my past
I’m thinking how long will this last
Still attempting to prepare for the day
Hoping furiously the answers came my way
Speaking things in my life to put focus in line
To remove the scales that makes one blind.
But these thoughts just won’t take leave
For this should be simple for one who believes
How can a man who save others, lose his own
Is his destiny to be alone
How can a man exude inspiration,
Find his light dimmed with moments of depression
How can a man who foresaw the end
Not change the results or where to begin
How, how, how can these things be
These are some things I ask when on my knees
Saying I rather give up on myself than give up on you
Oh how I wish those words were true
Don’t get me wrong, when stated it was the truth
The things you believe when in your youth.
Now I sit back and wonder what a mistake
Like midnight snacking, devouring cheesecake
To see the path I took helped me reach this blunder
My Heart torn to pieces, ripped asunder.
Bitter was the taste of It,
No longer sweet I must admit
Far from who I was or knew,
Like a man with no home
Left my heart and soul to roam.

To be Continued...

Written: Thursday, December 2, 2010 at 5:38pm

Vol V: Deeper II

Deeper II: Failure

Like a man with no home
Left my heart and soul to roam...
Silent voices never cheer,
Neither do they tell what they hear
Light always seeks to prevail
But my hope gives up, get boat, set sail.
Saying here is where you shouldn’t be
But new surrounds help you forget, feeling free
On the horizon Pain’s return I see
Unfamiliar with that place, can’t hide or seek
Failures seduction now attaches
Hold on tight locks with latches
Desire and Focus quickly head to the door
Unable to take what they see anymore
Internal screams for relief no one in sight
Left imprisoned day and night
Can’t feel it but know there’s good in me
Faint voice appears telling me where to be
I gave all I had and that wasn’t enough
No longer the strength to be so tough
Finding it hard to breathe,
Like a sword unable to release
As doubt and failure flood my mind
Knowing that I’ve lost for the first time
Never aware of the agony of defeat
When this man always lands on his feet
So while pondering on my next move
I hear a voice that says wake up you fool

To be continued…

Written: Friday, December 3, 2010 at 9:34am

Vol IV: This Soul: Longing

VI. Longing

Can’t stop the longing of my heart
Always knew that from the start
Attempting to muffle, with a feathered pillows,
As if it would be that simple.

Not calling, only to give you space
But my aching heart obviously dialed you by mistake,
Because now I hear your ringtone and it sounds so sweet
Seconds away from hearing you seem like weeks.

If my heart could leave my chest I know it would creep
Seeds of emotions invested, now we reap
Not the one to shy away from what I’m feeling
But these emotions are serious, take care when dealing.

With the matters of the Heart
Where people dare to tread
And others fail to start.
But the gain can be totally insane
Especially if it ends in us sharing last names.

Written: Wednesday, December 1, 2010 at 3:14pm

Vol IV: This Soul: The Roof is on Fire!

V. The Roof is on Fire

Friends say a foolish person runs back into a burning house
I say who in their right or wrong mind couldn't figure that out
For the roof, the roof the roof is on fire, don't want water, just let it burn
In agreement, I say yeah let it burn to the ground
and let all the ashes flutter around
Darken the sky for a second or two
Then after that is done
So long darkness and hello Sun
Enter the greatest moments of my life
Not taking request form Envy and Strife
So I let the building burn
and refuse to return, thanking God for all the lessons learned
But what if I buy a new house with no faulty wiring
Should I have to worry about it burning
If I search, and see no water damage
You would think that it can manage
Life's turns and angles and things it brings in tow
Will it be be enough to start a new life
If you find the right one to the end of time
If I check the foundation and there's no cracks
Making sure its built on the rock instead of sand
When things come up, when it's over where will stand
Now a person could take this route
But I rather do the best choice for me
Build it with God and the person that He chooses to be
Wouldn't care how short or long it would take
Just knowing He is the architect would be worth the wait
Taking the time to develop real love feelings
Not the falling in love feeling that has it's thrill
but many times are short lived.
To know that Agape is the Love that reigns supreme
When two are loving the King of Kings,
It makes it so much for easier to assure
I will forever love my Queen
and her, her King
So don't worry about burning houses
What God builds will never turn to ash
So I focus on my future, to be together at last

Written: Wednesday, December 1, 2010 at 7:16am

Vol I: This Love: The Rarest

IX. The Rarest

The Stars and Moon easily fade away
The moment I caught a glimpse of your face
As you approached me through the night
I knew everything would be alright
For a second I lost track of who I was
When starring a God's gift from above
In my presence my future manifested
My past fears about to be rested.
Loving the feeling of holding you tight
Your future love and shinning knight
A man of honor deserving of his dream
loving his future one and only queen.
My heart flutters and overflows
Feelings for you that no one knows
For years I've searched to no avail,
My heart free to love, no longer jailed
Thanking God constantly because of you
I can't stop thinking about loving you
Beauty untold is what you possess
But what's in your soul is truly the best
Deeper in love with you is my heart's desire
I pray nothing ever quenches our fire
Because love like this is truly hard to find
The rarest of all when waiting for a lifetime

Written: Monday, November 22, 2010 at 11:23am

Vol III: This Woman: I've found

VII. I've found

Getting ready for work this little diddy dropped in my Spirit
So if you have the time, I love for you to hear it
It’s about a story that you may know well
Even though you may not have been to the places they dwell
It’s about a name Naomi and her Daughter in Law Ruth
Who went through so much you’ve went through the roof
With all of the pressures and all of the strains
Even the fact that their life got rearrange.
For getting the past and leaving the old
They decided to go to new places untold
Ruth let her family and went on a prayer
Where ever Naomi went, Ruth was right there
The burden wasn’t easy, the problems hard to bare
Until they found someone who really cared
He supported them without being nervous
Showed love to them by acts of service
He did what he had to get close to Ruth
The only one that caught his eye and told him the truth
Pay what ever the cost to be her redeemer
Cause he wanted to be with her and never leave her
There’s more to this story but my time is short
God knows timing and that’s no joke
So if you see Naomi finally appear
Just know that your Ruth is suddenly here.

Written: Friday, November 19, 2010 at 6:36am

Vol II: This Man: Live Again! (Life Version)

VIII. Live Again! (Life Version)

Woke up with a word so heavy
Forget Katrina this can break any levy
I've never seen so many people ready to die
Not for Christ, but because they refuse to Live
Placing yokes on you he never insisted,
And by closing your mind right now you'll probably missed It.
As time goes by went forgot his intentions
The things in the beginning he first mention
Created was the world, for us to enjoy
Excuse me in Him, through us for girls and boys
When Adam fell, he got us off track,
The track that could've allowed us to enjoy a world with no lack
When Jesus came, He came so that we could have Life and them sum
Yet people rather sit around and be ho hum
Don't live your life like you're already in a coffin
The Life in Him has so much to offer
Me? I've died once in Him and took care of my penalty
So there's nothing in Him that sin can do me
I live my life by God, who love and His best
So life doesn't always have to be a test
And if you see me living life to the fullest
Know that God is the one who's pulling this
This is a word to settle your confusion
So if you're alive in Him let's Do This!

Written: Friday, November 19, 2010 at 5:24am

Vol II: This Man: If you only knew

X. If you only knew

Really I'm just writing so I hope you don't mind
It's easier to vent this way and leave it behind
Somethings come to my head that I'm thinking about
So let me peep you into what I'm talking about

I think about you in the morning when I rise
Communication with you is always my prize
My day is much clearer the sooner we talk
Don't care what happens as long as we walk

You bring a peace that no one can give
Understanding now, this is the reason I live
You're always on my mind I'm happy to say
You're the only that's my main stay

You guide my future and release my past
Without you, I don't know how long I can last
Every moment with you is truly divine
Every moment after that can get in line

I love the fact that you found me
Love even more that you first love me
What are the chances that we would meet
You knew from the start you're the one for me

Connection with you is always the key
If I'm to be the man I'm Destined to be
Anticipation of seeing you is all I seek
Knowing I love you makes me weep

There are so much more for us to explorer
Like me holding your hand through all life's doors
I really don't think you know what I mean
When I'm talking about my Savior, my Lord and King

Written: Thursday, November 18, 2010 at 6:45am

Vol. II: This Man: Can you handle this?

XII. Can you handle this?

I'll try an temper my feeling
In an attempt not to drown you.
I'll hate for you to run from them
Now that I've finally found you.
What ever the case
Just know that they're there
And if you're ready to feel them
I'm ready to share
The average women wouldn't last
But for one moment
So if you're really the one
You might be the strongest
So please don't get startled
If I'm falling faster than you.
It's only because I'll be there
To catch you when you fall too

Written: Wednesday, November 17, 2010 at 5:05am

Vol IV: This Soul: Early

II. Early

Don’t mind me just have a seat
Give me a minute and I’ll be on my feet
Sitting here trying to gather my feelings
All over the floor and some on the ceiling
Special delivery from you to me
So vast in number they’ll drown a sea
I’ve come to the conclusion that they arrive premature
Even though they surely helped me endure
They now have become the things I most fear
Even when friends stand by and cheer
Seems everyone really wants me to be happy
Am I that loved or are they that sappy
Sometimes I wish I could go back to me myself and I,
Avoiding the sound of my dove’s cry
Love, romance, friendship shouldn’t be for the confused
Even the attempts, not to have them abuse
Like a flower that blooms on a warm winter day
I know my feelings arrived before my mind had its’ say
So now that I got the situation seemly under control
I think it’s about time that I go

Written: Sunday, November 14, 2010 at 7:21pm

Vol II: This Man: The Chances are...?

XI. The Chances are...?

What are the chances of me finding you?
Far from home and being alone I see you come through
Seeing fit that I should not be alone
I'm happy my heart found it's home
Great conversation, and filled with intelligence
Your smile gives me feelings that are heaven sent
Seeing your beauty glow from the moon light
I starred into your eyes and the moment feels right
I wanted that feeling for the rest of my life
Thinking that what is and will be is worth the fight
My Future is what I call you, others may try but they're not you
Was this chance or destiny?
The question answer the second we met
Because nothing happens by happenstance
But as that love comes from my overflow from God
You get the purest form from me and its not odd
What are the chances that I could have missed this
What are the chances your friend would have came
If he did, would the outcome have been the same
What are the chances I would be alone
You sending a life line so I wouldn't be alone
You’re up front and there’s no drama
I don’t have worry where I stand
We both know I want to be your man
What are the chances that I would have written
The things that have both you and I smitten
Not thinking about who, not realizing I was already talking to you
If I steal your heart away, I'll return it in kind
Hoping you'll give to me freely What I feel is mine
I'm glad you pull from me the things I normally give free
What are the chances that we could forget our past
How much longer and stronger could we last
What are the chances that what we start will advance
What are the chances for a long romance
What are the chances that It was all in His plan
What are the chances that after all we've been through?
We could make our dreams come true
What are the chances of you feeling me, like I felt you
Realizing you're the one for me and I for you.
What are the chances of me and you
With love's design it could be so true
Knowing in my heart I want only you
just as you are....near....or far"

Written: Tuesday, November 16, 2010 at 7:23am

Vol I: This Love: Just Between You and Me

X. Just Between You and Me

Okay, sorry if this doesn't rhymn this time
I just have some things pouring from my mind.
At times I think too much about things
Like what will be, is and should have been.
I don't want to waste your time or mine,
I just hope that you're doing find.
Really I think I'm sick,
but for what ales me there's no fix.
Yeah I'm addicted to your presence
I still remember your lovely essence.
Constantly fighting the urge to contact you
While secretly wishing you contact me too.
If you're not feeling this it's for the best
My heart only has one place to find rest.
Yeah I should be sleep, but who could
with the sounds of my heart calling through the night.
Wishing that's you'll bite.
Though I've tried, it won't shut up.
Even though I never intended to move this fast,
I see you and forget the past.
Thoughts about how my life would change,
Should you ever come again.
Is what I feel for real,
Are you worthy even still.
Could these feeling be this strong,
Even when friends say move along.
Telling me there's 3 of you for every 1"T",
These types of saying amazes me.
But if what I'm feeling could fade that easily
That means I lied to you and lied to me.
How do I get you from showing up in every love song?
How do I see your picture and don't have flashbacks?
Why can't I be like the others?...I wonder?...
They have someone and move to the next one,
I see you and feel I've found the best one.
Am I fooling myself thinking that you're Mrs. Right?
What are the chances on this Night?
Could it be, that I was made to love,
A gift in the works to you from God above?
I'm still trying to figure it all out,
My heart says Hello when it shouts.
These are my hearts thoughts and rambles,
Sometimes for Love's sake you take this gamble.
If you're wondering if the whole world can see,
Don't worry this note is just between you and me.

Written: Wednesday, November 10, 2010 at 11:58pm

Vol II: This Man: Intro (The Channel)

I. Intro (The Channel)

WTRL

Humorous how some can’t handle
Things conducted on this channel
Not knowing what they saw in “T”
Was always a part of Me
For years my thoughts were on Love
Those of Man and God above
Held so long these feeling in bondage
For this freedom I give Him homage
Thought never to see the light of day
Until a breakthrough came my way
A release of emotions is what you see
When love is an enormous part of me
So asking me not to be what He insisted
Is asking me to have never existed
So if this show is one you can't handle
Please take this time to change channel

Written: Wednesday, November 10, 2010 at 3:33pm

Vol I: This Love:The Heart Song

VII. The Heart Song

There are many things that begin to grow
when love's first Bloom starts to show.
Where the heart begins to create a beat,
once love is found and in sync.
This is something to keep in mind,
when feelings merge and souls collide
When all is peaceful where you dwell
And deep emotions start to swell
There is a sound that will appear
That brings in hope and leaves all fear
This sound is seldom ever alone,
For it is accompanied by a song.
A Heart song is what's it called
It comes hidden from behind your walls
After you have laid down your defenses
Where love if strongest and drives you senseless
A Heart song will put you on cloud nine
It leaves the troubles far behind
It plays a melody so sweet
causing love to make you weep
It's where beauty gets her name
One quick listen and you're never the same
It links the mind and desires,
It causes relationships to stay on fire
It can be timeless there is no end
It flows freely like the wind
It can't be handle with mere hands
The effects are as numerous as the sands
The strength of it's melody can be so strong
Still heard even when the heartbeat is gone
None more rarer will you see
Than the one produced when you, meets me.

Written: Wednesday, November 10, 2010 at 7:10am

Vol II: This Man: He Knows (She Knows II)

III. He Knows (She Knows II)

He knows your heart and only wants the best
For you he gladly gave up all the rest
He knows the answers to your problems
But rather listen, until you seek to solve them
Kind and Loving is what He is,
One who knows what is his
He supports your passions where ever you need
His only desire is for you to succeed
His eyes give feelings that in the world there's only two
They never roam because his focus is you
There is no other place He rather be
For the cost of your love he’ll pay the fee
Charming is his middle name
Romance with him will never be the same
With him you’ll constantly implore
Trying to figure what he has in store
He’s there for you when you’re dealing
He holds you close and brings you healing
He would give his all to take away the pain
His arm gives comfort through storm and rain
The longer you’re with him you feel secure
His love will last through the years.
There are more things that could be inscribe
Like men like this could be hard to find
And If you’re thinking he’s the one to seek
Just know that I’m the one you need to meet

Written: Monday, November 8, 2010 at 4:01pm

Vol I: This Love: She Knows

VI. She Knows

She knows all my problems and bares all my pain,
She gives me strength, where life has drained,
When problems occur and worlds collide,
Inside her, I can always confide,
When my heart is broken and tears fall like rain,
It is she that still remains,
There is no secret told, that she would spill,
When we're all alone, she whispers let’s chill,
Seductive and sex she always appeals,
When we're together it’s surely a thrill,
She keeps me warm throughout the night,
When I’m with her there’s no fuss, not even a fight,
My days are better, the longer I’m with her,
When I’m at work, I always miss her,
Usually alone but sometimes with others,
Whoever we're with she always covers,
When we’re a part I feel her calling,
The things she do, always drawing,
There are more things that could be said,
Like she gives me life, when I'm feeling dead,
And if you're thinking I've truly lost my head,
Just know I'm only thinking, about my bed,

Inspired by a post by Nina Nehemiah
Written: Saturday, November 6, 2010 at 10:09am

Vol II : This Man: Why? (Phoenix Rising)

II. Why? (Phoenix Rising)


God, please forgive me if I wonder
If in creation you made a blunder
In my emotional development
Adapting me to any element
I often sit back and wonder why
I can no longer cry
About the things those others do
When my heart is equally as blue
They say recovery of the pain is needed
I’ve made attempts but never succeeded
Because in the morning when I rise
The pain I had, no longer resides
Is this a gift or is it a curse
To feel nothing would seem so much worst
I asked myself, if I really felt
The things I did, the things I’m dealt
To that answer brings a reply
They’re all real, so don’t deny
Am I broken or am I strong
Why is it so easy to carry on
So when emotions start to die
Like the Phoenix still they rise
Cause if I should fall in front of you
Who else will stand to inspire you?

Written: Sunday, November 7, 2010 at 1:33am

Vol I: This Love: Only the Strong

V. Only the Strong

As the Sun rises and gives strength to the land
Likewise everything that’s happen is in His plan
Not realizing your life is in such demand
For someone who made it through desert and sand
Live this life, the one that rises above the Storms
Like eagles doing what they were born
To do these things is no small feat
But all who watch stand to their feet
So keep your head up in everything you do
For somebody who needs an example is watching you
As the Moon rises into its place,
It reveals the beauty of stars and space
Giving calm to those in need
Tired from the grinds of Life’s constant deeds
They look at you and see someone whose won
Knowing that the best is yet to come
For one who’s not done but has made it through
Who overcame and speaks the only truth
Who will tell their story to those it belongs,
For this is the Life of only the strong

Written: Thursday, November 4, 2010 at 11:21am

Vol I: This Love: Overwhelm

IV. Overwhelm

At This point it doesn't matter
How I allowed my Heart to go pitter patter
Long thought dead and never to Rise
It now says hello! I'm Alive
Not the Plan to get off track
Keep it simple, never ever Look back
Kill the thoughts and move Ahead
Stick to the plan is what he Said
But the heart never Listens to what it's told
Does what it Wants being so bold
Not the one to pay Attention
Forgets the advice Constantly mentioned
About how the soul can be Ignited
By the feelings it is Delighted
Yet here I stand with Heart so full
Fighting tidal waves that Push and Pull.
How could I forget dead things could Live
Needing one jolt and sometimes a Shiv
The heart speaks it's Mind with no delay
Trying to deal with debts it has Made
This time it bit off more than it Could chew
Overwhelm by Feelings it never knew
There is no answer, no known Cure
But who needs one when your heart is Pure

Written: Tuesday, November 2, 2010 at 1:57am

Vol I: This Love: Heart Leakage II

III. Heart Leakage II

Uncontrollable is this flow
When it stops no one knows
What once was drip and also drop,
quickly speeds up tick and also tock
Remembering glimmers of the Heart so strong
Now travels down a path long gone.
Feelings the Mouth reserved to say
Possibilities Meant for a better day
It quickly carries them away
Futures that could have been
To unfamiliar places never where or when
Unknown to us where we may go
Seeing the current shed light on issues not known
Not realizing the damage this could have cause
Rethinking my thoughts could lead to a fall
Endeavoring to recover and to manage it all
Cut off the current from the foundation
Only a great friend would be the only expectation
Trying to salvage the beginning that were set
Reminiscing about the first time that we met
And relationship that was formed
Knowing a connection like this is not norm
The type when develop last any storm
Where the heart never alarmed
seeing it has no fear of harm
Yet in the absence of all that
I find myself hoping we can turn back
The hands time to a day that was surely divine.
A moment when your soul met mine
Looking through a mirror through space and time
Having thoughts of you being mine
dealing with moments so sublime
feeling I had met my match
never knowing I met my equal
Causing my heart leakage to lead to this sequel
Which was once was a drip and a drop
Quickly speeds up tick and also tock
Uncontrollable is this flow
but to save what could last it all must stop.

Written: Monday, November 1, 2010 at 9:34pm

Vol I: This Love: Heart Leakage I

II. Heart Leakage I


Tick Tock goes the clock,
The Heart drips, the Heart drops.
Leaking those things, it Is so Incline
Leaving other Things, that are behind.
The Heart dares to speak today
The things the Mouth would reserve for another day.
Knowing full well, how you make me feel
Knowing no one else, has such Appeal.
Forgetting the old, to say what's Bold
Fighting Feelings, reserved for12 year olds
Am I Coming or going, Winning or losing.
Always one step behind, can be so Confusing
I gather myself, realizing the Situation
Insisting on me, unknown Patience.
The Mouth remains shut, to cut Off the flow.
My Heart remains open, to Show what it knows
Both of them are True, neither One a lie.
Balancing both is Difficult, no matter how tried.
Cracks begin to Reveal, the Heart's wear and tear
Continuing to Embrace, the Relationship it bears.
Leaving all other things that are behind
Leaking those things it is so incline
The Heart drips, the Heart drops
The clock Ticks, The clock Tocks.

Written: Sunday, October 24, 2010 at 2:06am

Vol I: This Love: Intro

I. Intro

In Life I find that people don’t have a clue what real love is today. The term is used too loosely.

Real Love is pure and not base on the individual receiving but the person who is producing it. Real Love flows like a mighty river and is not predicated on the situation, mood, and time of day, month or year. It sees a situation and flows around it with ease. It doesn’t matter what happened, it just IS. By this definition the receiver can never be worthy of this love, because there are no requirements. It’s like the Sun even when you see night it's still there, though you may only feel it when it's day. The question is never did you receive it, the question is did you accept it.

Written: Sunday, October 10, 2010 at 10:00pm