Inner Me vs. Me: Carbon-Copy

How long should you persist,
When you offered love he only resist.
You said you wouldn't beg,
And literally you didn't,
But you put your love life on pause,
So tell me what's the difference?

Love can be a strange thing,
It could be so much more if they felt the same thing,
Saying you still have somethings to figure out,
When the pieces were before you, you both didn't work it out.

And I'm not trying to intervene,
I'm trying to listen to your heart and see what it needs.
Attempting to give honest advice without showing my hand,
Like how life would be if I were your man.
But I'll let those thoughts slide,
As you try again to give him yet another a try.
And I shouldn't be upset when you want him to change,
When I'm sitting here thinking of you, hoping you'll do the same.

Inner Me vs. Me: A Leap of Faith

I am yours, you are mine, together we are His.
I appreciate the timing,
Even though I wish you had come sooner,
There's so much I would have shared,
Yet I might not have appreciated you as i should,
Nor accepted you for who you are.

I sought for you, even though He said not to,
Another foolish trait to rid before meeting you.
Preparation was required, you are so worthy of that I now know,
Before I could be with the woman He prophesied to me.
And I tell myself I didn't search,
Only "helping" God, calling it temp work.

Each failure had me hurting more than I should,
Causing me to trust myself less,
Trusting God more is what I understood.
I'm so glad it wasn't my will that prevailed,
One wrong move would be a life of Hell.
Looking back I acknowledge the time to simmer and mature,
Seeing you now it made me a suitable man for you.
I know without a doubt He did the same with you,
As you were all I knew I needed,
Even more what I didn't know.

Still you amaze me as you continue to grow,
I've been writing about you for years,
Sometimes doubting you would ever come,
Not knowing you were always under my nose.
Near, never far away,
Wondering if we met in passing,
Never knowing who you would be,
Even until the very end I couldn't see.

Until the Spirit revealed what I should say,
Asking you to dinner sight unseen,
Not knowing your voice,
Or whether I even appealed.

Our previous conversations were never to seek a mate,
Just connect with those who could help us along life's way.
And in you I've found my best friend in this life,
My companion, my lover, my lovely wife.

So I may never have asked you for your time,
Strictly based off what I could perceive,
But God had a plan beyond what I could believe,
And my reward for that obedience,
Now you and I are we.


To my Lovely Wife,
Shalona L. Robinson Happy Anniversary,
I Love You
-A. T. Robinson
est. 10/17/16

Inner Me vs. Me: Change of Plans

Seems like today's that day...
I feel my life changing inside to out,
Still looking at my life, and trying to figure that out,
It seemed simpler to just focus on me,
Not looking around, and see what could be.
Often seeing potential,
But my heart wouldn't lead to the mental.
And like small children with playful smiles and dimples,
Love should be more simple.
And I smiled too, but it wasn't like this,
Didn't know what I didn't have or what I could miss,
Like the smell of her scent and lush lips to kiss,
And she storms into my life and fits right in,
Knowing it's about timing because I wasn’t ready for we,
But things switch and I can't see a life without you and I,
How can that be,
And I see myself changing to be a better man,
Friends say I'm a tad more happy,
Others say I'm a tad more sappy,
Both correct, and I can't complain,
Loving the way I feel when she calls my name.
Or when I tell her she’s special to me,
I know that my life had change,
Wondering how far I came, and the possibilities of where we could go.
Wondering if were led to the same name, God only knows,
Thinking we're not perfect, but we're perfection.
So glad God made her His selection,
Now I’ll admit I’m in no wise worthy of you,
Not because of anything I've done, but only you.