Foolishly I

Honestly I didn't see it,
Even if I had, I wouldn't have believed it.
Probably because I often lived it,
Bound to my dogmatic ways and thinking.

Surely I had everyone figured out,
When I didn't even know myself.
Saying the craziest things,
And I didn't care, I knew they were off the wall,
Not realizing I was Humpty and destined to fall.

Telling my blueprint of my perfect woman,
Blind to my vast journey to being her perfect man.
Segregating women based on an outward definition,
As if a hairstyle could give voice to the meaning of their soul.

Or the beauty of their personality, drown like treasure in the deepest sea,
Merely due to enhancements chosen to dawn their face.
Attempting to speak as the mature,
They were useless thoughts turned old manure,
I was unable to receive a love that's pure.

Difficult to look upon on the person I once was,
Praying the foolishness of my heart won't come back to me.
Because regretfully I still remember that man,
Time make me over so I don't resemble that man.

I recall the anguish I caused,
Their shattered feelings utterly destroyed.
Knowingly and unknowingly, leaving their emotions deserted,
Merely touched by my stupidity.

Nor could I hear their cries for my humility,
Failed attempts at love, my reward for voicing immaturity.
Countless hearts torn, as dried tears rest upon longer faces,
I am the product of fractured walls now crumbling down.

As ignorance fell like scales from my eyes,
Admitting I was lost in a world filled with my false reality.
Relieved the moment I realize God sent her to me,
She's everything I couldn't appreciate then,
But everything I would ever need now.
I'm just thankful this is the version of me she's found.

Inner Me vs. Me: Carbon-Copy

How long should you persist,
When you offered love he only resist.
You said you wouldn't beg,
And literally you didn't,
But you put your love life on pause,
So tell me what's the difference?

Love can be a strange thing,
It could be so much more if they felt the same thing,
Saying you still have somethings to figure out,
When the pieces were before you, you both didn't work it out.

And I'm not trying to intervene,
I'm trying to listen to your heart and see what it needs.
Attempting to give honest advice without showing my hand,
Like how life would be if I were your man.
But I'll let those thoughts slide,
As you try again to give him yet another a try.
And I shouldn't be upset when you want him to change,
When I'm sitting here thinking of you, hoping you'll do the same.

Inner Me vs. Me: A Leap of Faith

I am yours, you are mine, together we are His.
I appreciate the timing,
Even though I wish you had come sooner,
There's so much I would have shared,
Yet I might not have appreciated you as i should,
Nor accepted you for who you are.

I sought for you, even though He said not to,
Another foolish trait to rid before meeting you.
Preparation was required, you are so worthy of that I now know,
Before I could be with the woman He prophesied to me.
And I tell myself I didn't search,
Only "helping" God, calling it temp work.

Each failure had me hurting more than I should,
Causing me to trust myself less,
Trusting God more is what I understood.
I'm so glad it wasn't my will that prevailed,
One wrong move would be a life of Hell.
Looking back I acknowledge the time to simmer and mature,
Seeing you now it made me a suitable man for you.
I know without a doubt He did the same with you,
As you were all I knew I needed,
Even more what I didn't know.

Still you amaze me as you continue to grow,
I've been writing about you for years,
Sometimes doubting you would ever come,
Not knowing you were always under my nose.
Near, never far away,
Wondering if we met in passing,
Never knowing who you would be,
Even until the very end I couldn't see.

Until the Spirit revealed what I should say,
Asking you to dinner sight unseen,
Not knowing your voice,
Or whether I even appealed.

Our previous conversations were never to seek a mate,
Just connect with those who could help us along life's way.
And in you I've found my best friend in this life,
My companion, my lover, my lovely wife.

So I may never have asked you for your time,
Strictly based off what I could perceive,
But God had a plan beyond what I could believe,
And my reward for that obedience,
Now you and I are we.


To my Lovely Wife,
Shalona L. Robinson Happy Anniversary,
I Love You
-A. T. Robinson
est. 10/17/16

Inner Me vs. Me: Change of Plans

Seems like today's that day...
I feel my life changing inside to out,
Still looking at my life, and trying to figure that out,
It seemed simpler to just focus on me,
Not looking around, and see what could be.
Often seeing potential,
But my heart wouldn't lead to the mental.
And like small children with playful smiles and dimples,
Love should be more simple.
And I smiled too, but it wasn't like this,
Didn't know what I didn't have or what I could miss,
Like the smell of her scent and lush lips to kiss,
And she storms into my life and fits right in,
Knowing it's about timing because I wasn’t ready for we,
But things switch and I can't see a life without you and I,
How can that be,
And I see myself changing to be a better man,
Friends say I'm a tad more happy,
Others say I'm a tad more sappy,
Both correct, and I can't complain,
Loving the way I feel when she calls my name.
Or when I tell her she’s special to me,
I know that my life had change,
Wondering how far I came, and the possibilities of where we could go.
Wondering if were led to the same name, God only knows,
Thinking we're not perfect, but we're perfection.
So glad God made her His selection,
Now I’ll admit I’m in no wise worthy of you,
Not because of anything I've done, but only you.

'Cause I Love You

I was a loser at every hand,
Yet I continued to play love's game,
Until it was no longer a game.

It's pain relived a thousand times,
An ocean of tears from all the times I've cried.
Constantly lying to myself, saying I'll never do it again,
But I could never listen to my past, nor its horrid sins.

Moving too quickly,
Not seeing how long these distraction could last.
As she offered Love's gift as if it were new,
And I reluctantly received it, believed it,
Wondering if it's possibilities were true.

Dreams of this love so real,
As my reality quivers in her quake,
My passion for only who my soul would love grows,
Gladly blossoming in the time it should know.

Yet I desired to be more for her than what I am,
No longer singular, as our love brings these thoughts to be.
Oh to wish, upon her the star of my life,
Leading me to the path which births happiness and bliss,
Things so long sought after, but my heart often missed.

She is to me more precious than this world,
A Love so perfect, so genuine, so sweet.
Time hinder my voice, proclaiming all she means to me,
Loving her until my last earthly breath.

All that's in my heart, I leave nothing left,
For now each day, is lived with no regret.


Dedicated to the One My Soul Loves, Shalona L. Robinson.
Happy Valentine's Day, 'Cause I Love You

The Weekend You

Hey There,
It seems I missed you more than I knew,
Wonderful to see you again too.
I know it feels right we reconnected,
Feels almost like the first time we met,
But it's so much more,
Seeing we've embraced this journey together.

Things have changed, but our love will always remain,
As life struggles to grab our attention,
It's only in the way.
But I could think of a million ways, saying how I feel,
This time with you, I'm more than free.

My responsibility is only to fulfill your desire,
Talk being cheap, but my actions are oh so expensive.
Can't get enough of you,
Far from apprehensive.

As my love compounds, it's more than interest,
You're my greatest interest.
A love others see, their desire like Pinterest,
As we'll remain, not for show,
Just the greatest example of what love is,
And how it's shown.