The Simple Things

Is it weird that I look forward to your text message?
I mean, come on, it’s just a text message,
Well, not only the message… but I think you know what I’m saying,
Fact is, If it’s someone else, my elation drastically lessens,
Because I love to hear that tone of my phone,
It’s like a gift trying to be unlocked, unwrapped and unleashed,
Into this life, in earnest your messages tend to lighten my life,
As the Sun brightens the day, gives growth to plants finding their way,
Seeing your name displayed, it might as well be in neon lights,
Cheeks redden, accompanied with a smile, with such delight,
Is it weird to feel this way not even seeing your face?
Yet knowing it’s the face that I only want to see?
Close my eyes and dream it’s closer to me,
Maybe, quite possibly…touching my own,
Is that too much to ponder in a simple poem?
If I sung it, would it do it more justice?
Because emotions are arrested by your essence,
Wow and I'm still just talking about a phone,
Let me find something else to do,
It's like I find myself drowning in quicksand,
As we merge in intellectual, sometimes affectional dialect,
If my heart were open,(and I'll say that it is),
It would sure be easy to dissect once lost, now found intentions,
To bring into open, things I've longed to mention,
All because package data travels wirelessly, effortlessly through space and time,
That comes from your phone and captivates mine.

Confessions: Catching Feelings

Maybe I should and maybe I shouldn’t,
Ask for her number, catch her attention,
Look her in the eyes; tell her she’s what dreams mentioned,
And once I found her I can’t let her go,

Tell her the secrets no one else knows,
Long strolls, romantic rides,
On top of the world, reach the sky,
Tell her that I’m more than just a little smitten,

Can you cuddle in my arms, be my little kitten?
Write a love song, that no one else can sing,
Until the day you wear our wedding ring,
Yea I'm probably moving too fast,

I’ll seal these feelings until the time has passed,
Give you the best of me, I'll be the east, you’ll be the west… You see,
Kinda have the feeling; met One my life can’t remove,
Spend my waking hours devising ways to get close to you,

And in my dreams see clear visions,
About the decision I’m about to make,
So I’ll start things off by asking you on a date,
If the night permits you’ll soon know the truth,

That the one who stands before you, is One meant for you.

Confessions: A "Single" Fear

You’re my heart throbber, breath taker, a life shaker
Intelligent problem solver, dream shaper, a smile maker
Crazy little out of control, in control, fire shining brighter than the sun,
With tenacity that won’t quit til the battle’s won,

My sometimes angel, other times vixen
Blood pressure elevator, lovely motivator,
One who easily stands out in the crowd,
The one who makes even your competitors say “wow”,

And they’re not competitors, because there’s no competition,
Your're what you write about in poems, making others sit & listen,
Cause Lovers find you easy to Love, Everyone who encounters wishes to be friends,
Looks that stop time, then speak so it begins,

My special friend, a secret love, would search the sky,
Just to find your face & hear a Hi,
The greatest treasure on this blue earth,
Has me thanking God He gave birth,

To the soul I most willingly connect,
A gem I wish would press play and say next…on Life,
Be more than what we are, visit destinations afar,
The one I try not to think about,

Because without, you’re all I think about,
You're the start, I’ll be the finish,
The one I wish my Love could diminish,
Then rise from the Ashes, Burning with new passion.

Okay, so I'm rambling off feelings like an auctioneer,
Finding with you there's a "Single" fear,
If I said I loved you, would you stay near?
Or would what I treasured soon fade away?

Guess we'll find these answers on another day.

Confessions: The Things I Never Said (Part I)

It’s like it wasn’t supposed to be this way,
It all got twisted and you had no voice,
Empty hands tied hoping things could change,
Your tears falling from your eyes like rain,
Wasn’t there when you needed me,
Can’t be mad if you don’t forgive me,
Trying to do the very best I can,
But in the end I’m still just a man,
And no, a phone call just won’t do,
When unable to console for all you’ve gone through,
Hearing your heart dispense,
Pleading the Lord that there be recompense,
Or could this distance be erased,
Unable to dry tears from your beautiful face,
Pride turns to dusty shambles,
Broken soul and heart dismantled,
Praying the Angels would come to quickly meet you,
Hold fast until my touch can reach you,
Find a comfort in my voice,
When at there hardest, in God rejoice,
Loving you more, is my solemn vow,
Asking the Lord to show me how,
Circumstances not desired, but my love will have to do,
Never quenched will be my fire, just to be close to you,
We’ll be together soon, so don’t be sad,
Because nothing bring me more joy, than being your loving Dad,
Love you,

Dedicated to Jaden Jaron Robinson & Jordan Javon Robinson

Confessions: Love Vacancy

We were as close as life would allow us to be,
Like sand gathered on the beach across the sea,
You were my closest friend, my only lover,
There was only you, never another,

Impossible to separate the lovely two,
At least that’s what I believed, from this point of view,
With no regard, nonchalantly interrupted my life,
And though it wasn’t the best, I had no strife,

Rethinking the change in atmosphere had no limits,
Lasting forever beyond the living,
I loved you, every escaped thought, tattooed with your name,
You said you loved me too, the melody your heart sang,

So why are you no longer by my side?
Publicly shedding my last tears, the others I hide,
Missing you deeply, heartfelt wishing you could remain,
When you’re absent, none shields my rain,

As it pours…, only missing you more,
Wondering if you’ll gracefully return again,
Should I wait for you, or let hope end?
Should I hold on to the memories of you and I?

The weight it carries I refuse to deny,
Holds me closer, longer, than desired, leaving me where I am,
On shores of life waiting once again,
Wondering if you really care how much I yearn for you,

To once again know the intimate elements that make of you
Rekindled before my time expires…,
As seconds feel like never ending minutes, minutes like eternal hours,
And hours fade like laundry forgotten in the sun,

Aspirations I could stop calling, but my heart’s unfinished, Saying
Return to me…,
Hear my plea…
Draw near to me…,

Or am I unwilling to be believe, what unfortunately could truly be,
That Love has forgotten me.

I Can Handle This?

I want so much,
But deserve so little,
Like wanting a guitar,
When I really deserve a fiddle,

And these notes I play,
Should be just for you,
But I find myself,
Giving to one or maybe two,

And when it fails,
Oh and it will fail,
You're not even mad,
Knowing what words to say,
When I feel so sad,

Start feeling recovered,
And I’m rearing to go,
Forget to say thank you,
No gratefulness shown,

Why do I strive to leave,
The places I should not,
Racing down hills,
With no way to stop,

And yet you know how,
To put on the Brakes,
You know what I need,
Before I even say,

Striving to be my own,
Without having a clue,
That in you I am,
And I belong to you,

To go untended,
Will surely cost,
Like a child in the store,
Who's parent is lost,

Yeah, I said it right,
The parents lost,
Because it couldn't possibly me,
Because I'm grown you see,

I know where I'm going...
At least I think I Do...
You see Life is like crowded trees,
And I can't quite see my way,

Looking for a shoulder to climb,
I say Daddy hey?
Do you…, Mind…, if...,
I take your hand?

And when tired,
Ride on your shoulder?
You know I can’t do it all,
even if I’m older,

May Bad, It seems it wasn't about me,
It would was always about you,
Okay, Clearly I missed it,
Take a moment and Thank the Lord for repentance,

My life like a dark closet,
Unable to see the door,
You place me where you would,
So I can be restored,

And now it’s your path,
And direction I'm seeing,
I know it’s In you I live,
Move and have my Being.

Confessions: Uncaptured Thoughts

Even as I write, can’t help thinking of you,
Face cramps from a statue smile, that cannot be removed,
Thoughts of times we embraced,
Sunlight dancing across your face,

Hearing your voice, as our day unwinds,
And giving space to share your time,
Future plans of playful rendezvous,
I check the calendar for it to come soon,

Pondering if your Day heeded my prayers,
Failure to give you the best, it wouldn’t dare,
My heart’s desire is the best for you,
To never see you hurt and never blue,

Times we interact brings me great joy,
Like past Christmas mornings waiting for toys,
Your existence makes mine persistent,
To perfect who I am, because of you I’m better than who I am,

Each second from you beacons for a response to answers I can’t reply
If you were here, in you my love would lie,
Wondering if the most precious soul, made woman from girl,
Would say I do, and share my world.

Confessions: Just Because

I am unequivocally, unapologetically, so heavily, madly in love with you,
It isn't really who you are or even who I am,
Just what would, could be, together with you and me,
Yeah I know that's bad grammar and doesn't make much sense,
But when has Love with the one it's meant?
It doesn't make sense, and that's what makes it Real,
And it's not reliant on wave like emotions or cheap trills,
Occasional feels and fleeting moments come and go,
But those things that are valued never show,
The tarnish, degrade, scratches and tore,
Because when deprecated, Love actively completely restores,
So if you ever ask the question, why you're the one I love,
Just remember this poem, it's name is Just Because.

Confessions: Signals Crossed

Ummm? Excuse me, I believe you've missed a spot,
Because if you're gonna vacate, don't just leave a drop,
And if stripping out my heart like paint was your intent,
Please take this opportunity, fall to knees and repent.

Maybe I should, since I mistook your actions,
Of those seeds given to bud with passion,
Now I'm questioning...,
At times asking...,

What just happen?
Was there an opportunity?
Could this even had worked?
Just wondering...

Just saying...
For you, no longer displaying,
The parts you thought were me going all in,
We're merely where I start to begin, Nevertheless,

For relationships that seems to be the cardinal sin,
If that's how it is,
That's just how it's gonna be,
No longer hinting of life with me,

Keep my distance...,
Maybe you'll make a move...
And won't even pray that it comes on soon,
Or come at all,

Because when love is lost, hurt is the fall,
Coming to conclusions to make us content,
Never mine you...
It is I who repents.