Vol V: Deeper III

Deeper III: When I'm Done Crying

So while pondering on my next move,
I hear a voice that says wake up you fool,
Thinking, in life sometimes you’ll have to go through pains,
I’m happy now, but it wasn’t always the same,
Trying to breathe, but no breathe would come,
Heartbroken to pieces, difficult to make it one,
Tears internally…sometimes externally race swiftly down,
To the depths of my soul, the lost and found,
Pains so bad it hurts to mention,
It’s been sometime and my heart still has tension,
From Love wasted and cast to the floor,
Trying to figure out, how it loved any more,
Dreaded gasps for hope lingered in the air,
In the thoughts will they change, will they care?
I’ve heard no expectations, no disappointments,
But though I’ve tried to follow, my heart always made appointments,
For the things it wished could have been,
To live a life with love, mutual & no end,
But like a disease, it slowly ate away,
Prayers for clear light to break through on a cloudy day,
Things going around in circles with clearly no end,
Worried about the creature, more than the creator,
Realizing I’ve neglected my King and maker,
Asking forgiveness for thoughts that led to sin,
In order to turn a lost, into a win,
Through it all I’ve found so much peace,
By taking the time to love God and me
No longer Jonah, my destiny now pursuing,
No longer worried, about things that were ruin.
To be continued…

Deeper I:
Deeper II:

The Single Things We Do (Part I): Feelings Unchecked

Personally I confess, I consider my feelings distracting,
So I’ll acknowledge them on paper to keep from reacting,
What you’re about see is an example of what I call Heart Leakage,
When my soul begins to say the things, I rather not be speaking,
So here is, or could it be,
That I already know whose right for me,
And though my heart longs to investigate,
My Spirit steps in and says “Booooy you better wait!”
He says, I have things in store for your life,
And dude right now, this isn’t the time pondering a wife,
“Get to know me” is the Phase you’re in,
Now that your soul has been completely purged from sin,
This requires immersion through love and devotion,
Because thinking of her, is like drinking an unhealthy potion,
Focus is lost, and Dull goes the hearing,
Missions not complete, you'll miss His appearing,
Sure it’s not good for man to be alone,
But when you’re alone, you can sing that song,
If you lose your focus, I can't help you,
When I’m not wanted, can't fight you,
For I’m here to guide you, in the ways of all truth,
So listen to me now, “Don’t rely on you!”
Earthy desires unchecked, can cause you to stray,
If they go against what God, already has to say,
So control what you have, acknowledge those feelings,
Offer them to God; He has a plan for what you're dealing,
He knows your situations, and understands them clearly,
So depend on Him, for He loves you dearly
To be Continue,