I Can Handle This?

I want so much,
But deserve so little,
Like wanting a guitar,
When I really deserve a fiddle,

And these notes I play,
Should be just for you,
But I find myself,
Giving to one or maybe two,

And when it fails,
Oh and it will fail,
You're not even mad,
Knowing what words to say,
When I feel so sad,

Start feeling recovered,
And I’m rearing to go,
Forget to say thank you,
No gratefulness shown,

Why do I strive to leave,
The places I should not,
Racing down hills,
With no way to stop,

And yet you know how,
To put on the Brakes,
You know what I need,
Before I even say,

Striving to be my own,
Without having a clue,
That in you I am,
And I belong to you,

To go untended,
Will surely cost,
Like a child in the store,
Who's parent is lost,

Yeah, I said it right,
The parents lost,
Because it couldn't possibly me,
Because I'm grown you see,

I know where I'm going...
At least I think I Do...
You see Life is like crowded trees,
And I can't quite see my way,

Looking for a shoulder to climb,
I say Daddy hey?
Do you…, Mind…, if...,
I take your hand?

And when tired,
Ride on your shoulder?
You know I can’t do it all,
even if I’m older,

May Bad, It seems it wasn't about me,
It would was always about you,
Okay, Clearly I missed it,
Take a moment and Thank the Lord for repentance,

My life like a dark closet,
Unable to see the door,
You place me where you would,
So I can be restored,

And now it’s your path,
And direction I'm seeing,
I know it’s In you I live,
Move and have my Being.