Vol V: Deeper I

I. Deeper: Confusion

Waking up in the morning, figured I was fine
But many thoughts began to flood my mind
About things I rather forget from my past
I’m thinking how long will this last
Still attempting to prepare for the day
Hoping furiously the answers came my way
Speaking things in my life to put focus in line
To remove the scales that makes one blind.
But these thoughts just won’t take leave
For this should be simple for one who believes
How can a man who save others, lose his own
Is his destiny to be alone
How can a man exude inspiration,
Find his light dimmed with moments of depression
How can a man who foresaw the end
Not change the results or where to begin
How, how, how can these things be
These are some things I ask when on my knees
Saying I rather give up on myself than give up on you
Oh how I wish those words were true
Don’t get me wrong, when stated it was the truth
The things you believe when in your youth.
Now I sit back and wonder what a mistake
Like midnight snacking, devouring cheesecake
To see the path I took helped me reach this blunder
My Heart torn to pieces, ripped asunder.
Bitter was the taste of It,
No longer sweet I must admit
Far from who I was or knew,
Like a man with no home
Left my heart and soul to roam.

To be Continued...

Written: Thursday, December 2, 2010 at 5:38pm